Tuesday, August 06, 2013
Since I've gotten off track, I've been thinking about this topic. In the end, with just about everything, Nike had it right, and 'Just Do It' is really a guarantee for success for just about everything.
But alas! I am not a 'Just Do It' type of person and despite being aware of Nike's wisdom since I was about 15, I am still not a 'Just Do It' person. For me, everything is a process, and then, finally, then, I 'Just Do It'.
If you have been reading my blog posts, I've been going back and forth and up and down since about June. I've fallen. I've fallen in just about every way.
There has been so much going on in my head, that I have allowed it. I've wanted to think things through a little more. I have wanted to slow things down a bit. There have been moments when I have wanted to gain my weight back, or at least some of it. I've gotten my wish.
I don't mind the weight gain so much. Which, I suppose is also a strange thing to confess.
But I am a strange person. I don't think weight gain is to be unexpected. I don't think stops and starts are to be unexpected.
I think as human beings we struggle with striving for the ideal and our own humanity. I know that as an idealistic perfectionist, it's always been one of the things I've struggled with.
For anyone who hasn't had experience with a perfectionist, in general this characteristic is expressed one of two ways.
1 - A perfectionist in full expression of their perfectionism is just about perfect and needs to have everything just about perfect and can be a bit controlling and they are certainly controlling with themselves.
2 - A perfectionist whose attempts at perfectionism are thwarted often let it all go and when they let it all go, they let it all go in spectacular ways. They totally give up.
That is a very basic analysis of it. I have been both. I do prefer #1. When the reality of what it is to be human rears it's ugly head, I go towards 2.
Nothing brings out the reality of what it is to be human and than the presence of my son.
So I've been 1 and then 2 and then settled back into 1. The truth is, I get along with people better when I am 2. So, when I really want to get along with people, when I really want peace and harmony in my life, I go for 2.
I have known about my perfectionism and it's effects even when I weighed almost 296 and had no intention whatsoever of losing the weight. At the time, I was only periodically unhappy about my weight. The comfort was more important to me.
So there's a month before my son goes back to school. If I ever want to allow another human being into my life, someone other than my son, I figure, I'm going to have to work this out.
There are of course other issues than perfectionism but this is already a lengthy post.
So, back to the topic of this post.
How to get back on track?
Well, I don't think you get on track by picking up exactly where you left off. You could, I suppose. I think it depends on how far off track you've gone.
But I'm thinking that getting back to basics is the key. For me, these are the basics.
1 - Track
2 - Exercise everyday
3 - Eat more vegetables & cut back on processed carbs - bread and crackers made from refined flour and such.
That's about it. It's a long post to get to something so simple.