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Going up and down on the Staircase of Health

Monday, August 05, 2013

So this week's weigh-in was kinda a bummer. Instead of going down, I went up to about 163. I've been hovering around that number for the past few days (I'm sure my mini-vacation didn't help). It doesn't help that it seems like I'm constantly hungry, no matter how regularly I eat, how much water I drink, etc.

There is a part of me that is freaking out. "Oh no!" she screams. "I'm falling off the wagon! I'm going to regain all that weight! I can't go back to that woman - I don't like myself then! And I'll be letting everyone else down too!"

But I am making a conscious decision not to freak out anymore. Sure, I'm not happy about gaining weight, about not being as good as I have been. But I am human. And I make mistakes.

Now is the time where I can run back over the past few days to see where I've gone wrong. Perhaps that salad was a bit oversized. Oh, I don't think I got my full 64oz of water. I did exercise quite a bit - no wonder my body felt so hungry. And I kinda messed up my nighttime routine.

Old Me would have said, "I blew it - oh, well, might as well just throw the whole thing out the window!"

Because somehow it makes sense to forget ONE HUNDRED POUNDS LOST just because I had an extra meal when I felt really hungry?

Because it makes sense to forget I went from a snug size 20 to a size 10 just because I wasn't as good about portioning my meals?

Because I have more energy and work out regularly (usually 3 times a week, minimally) that is why I should just eat everything in sight?

Absolutely NOT! I have come a LONG WAY. And while I may have not been faithful and gained a bit of weight, the fact is, I have still LOST 100+ pounds! That is not an easy feat!

So instead of whining about the few pounds I gained and how horrible that is, I am going to keep my focus on my accomplishment. I am going to hold tight to that knowledge of how I lost 100+ pounds and get back on track. I'm going to be better about portions, water, exercise, etc. I'm not throwing in the towel. I'm not going to eat every food I was ever tempted by. If anything, this journey has taught me I am much stronger than I gave myself credit - and I am not going to fail just because I slipped down one step on my staircase to good health!
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  • COCHESE321
    We both know that one off week will not cost us 100 lbs. But it sure feels that way, doesn't it? But in a year from now, will either of us even know what we weighed today? I won't unless I pull out my calendar.
    1685 days ago
    I weigh myself and post the number on my FitBit page every day. It reminds me that the number on the scale fluctuates a little no matter what I do. It also shows me that when there's a real trend toward gaining that I can catch it before it gets out of hand. I'm not going back to my old habits, but I realize my new habits can get sloppy. It's time to tighten things up a bit!
    1686 days ago
    1687 days ago
    when feeling discouraged, it is good to think about all the progress you made and how you did it so you can get motivated and feel good about getting back on track.
    1687 days ago
    Wow! 100 lbs? That's amazing! Please DO celebrate. Just because you fell off the horse doesn't mean you can't get back on. Of course you can! I've lost and am celebrating my 7 lbs today! It's taken me a whole lot of work, learning how to eat and commitment. I've been stagnating for about a year and finally, after seeing a nutritionist and finding out where I've gone wrong, I'm able to do it right. It's taken me three months to lose 7 lbs. Whoo, hooo! Lol. So please don't fret! You could be me! Lol, lol. Starting at the beginning. You've come so very far. I think your amazingly wonderful!

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    1687 days ago
    You can do it!- but You already know that.
    Have A Great Week!
    Continued SUCCESS!
    1687 days ago
  • AGOALOF150
    You are so awesome! Way to turn those feelings around. You will never go back to where you started from. You have every reason to be happy about your progress and it is good that you are aware and concerned about your first reaction to a slight weight gain.
    1687 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Thank you for sharing with us how you're keeping your focus right where it needs to be and how you're troubleshooting!
    1687 days ago
    Great attitude!
    1687 days ago
    You are awesome!!! It is hard to break bad habits. But even worse, we also we are taught in today's world that once you make one bad choice, the rest of the day is ruined. Which is so NOT true! So we decided to give in to that donut this morning... That doesn't mean we say "Oh well, guess I'll do better tomorrow!" and eat the whole buffet. We still have the whole rest of the day left to make great choices!! Little things add up, yes, but once we get out of the "might-as-well-throw-in-the-towel-s
    ince-I-messed-up" attitudes we mentally put ourselves in, good choices will become much easier to choose. Keep up the great work Carolyn... You are such an inspiration!
    1687 days ago
    I'm glad to see how positive you are being about such a negative thing :)

    Do you think it is possible that you weren't eating ENOUGH this past week? I know that can actually be a problem if you are exercising a lot and not eating more calories to compensate and encourage muscle growth. Or so sparkpeople says!
    1687 days ago
    You are absolutely right you have come a very long way.... 100 pounds!! Everyone gains a little once in a while it's letting yourself a lot like you said and losing control. The reality is, you are kicking the booty of the fat and extra pounds that you don't want. Don't look back....you are on the train moving forward!! emoticon

    And don't forget to drink that water!! emoticon
    1687 days ago
  • KJACOBS1111
    emoticon Finding the balance between real life and the weight loss journey is hard. As long as you are awake and aware and can catch these things because you are paying attention then it is much easier to get back on track...it's only when we deny what is going on that we get into trouble because then we give up and throw all our hard work out the window!
    1687 days ago
  • LEWILL1982
    Good girl, way to turn around those thoughts and reaffirm all the good that you've done!
    1687 days ago
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