Monday, August 05, 2013
I began recovering from food addiction here on Spark back in April. I filled in all of the requisite information we are asked about at the beginning of our journey, and I wound up with a goal of 142 pounds lost, and a final weight of 140. I set up my ticker and started my journey. I lost 20 pounds in the first three weeks and my starfish barely moved! I could hardly bear to look at it! It was more of a discouragement than a cheerleader. So I did something I've never done before and I changed my goal to a short-term,
acheivable-at-some-point in the foreseeable future kind of goal. I decided that although it might be weird to WISH and DESIRE and LONG to be 249 pounds...that was my truth, and I was going to embrace it. So I changed my goal strategy to include several goals, instead of just one.
The first goal was to get that big chunky, clunky piece of metal on the clinic scale OFF of the '250' indentation, and ONTO the '200' one. I only needed to be 249 for that to happen, so I edited my beach ticker, and less than four months later, CHECK!!!! DONE!!!! GOAL!!!! :-). I weigh 249 pounds today :-). I am so very grateful for the support, encouragement and love that got me here today. Thank you, Friends for your hands and hearts, and your willingness to assist me in that endeavor! I will repeatedly stare at my ticker today and REJOICE in the fact that my little star fish looks like he's contemplating a jump off the edge of that beach :-).
But when I log back on tonight to email my AP and my PB, I will change my ticker. My next goal is to weigh what I weighed when I married Mr Slezak. I will strive to achieve a 32 pound weight loss with a *goal weight of 217. My start weight shall stay the same, but the end of that ticker will grow considerably. And I will REVEL in moving Mr Starfish further down the line.
I share all of that to say this. I am changing. I am growing. I am learning. I was always an 'all or nothing'/ type A personality. But I have realized, I can't get to 140 without passing a whole bunch of other numbers on the way. And those numbers matter EVERY BIT AS MUCH as the 140! Taking my time, being realistic and loving myself enough to do this right, is where I am now. Our lives are rarely ever black or white...they're usually a whole lot of shades of grey. And I am basking in the heather grey of my life right at this moment :-).
Besides, 249 today, feels WAY BETTER than 282 ever did or could... :-)
Thank you all for your help and your love! I reached a GOAL today!!!! The first of many, I'm sure!