Sunday, August 04, 2013
I was so honored and surprised when the Maintenance Team wanted to feature my blog - I only write sporadically, and usually it's just to vent! But I often get so much positive encouragement, it just lifts me up and helps me to continue doing my best, day-by-day.
Many people struggle with negative self-talk, and it really takes effort sometimes to counter those thoughts with positive messages. I even do it and my heart is not in it (bad thoughts: "Oh, jeez, you're up again, can't you just learn to stop before you're stuffed" or "She's so pretty and has a nice shape, and she doesn't try. I wish I was so lucky to be naturally thin/pretty" Good thoughts: "Whatever! I will make up for it today/this week, I eat lots of fresh veggies most days and that will help." "Yes, but you look nice, too. Everybody has a unique shape, there is beauty in everyone."). So I may not really FEEL the good thoughts, but I say them to myself anyway. And I pray a lot - with God, all things are possible, even conquering weight woes, vanity, and negative thinking!
So, with that said, right now even though my weight's up higher than I like (had a nice time on a camping family vacation, and still fightin' to get those extra treats/drinks calories off!), I just completed my first ever mud run!
It was so much fun! I did the Dirty Girl Twin Cities one with a couple of girlfriends. We mostly power-walked it, as they hadn't been training and had some foot injuries they were recovering from, and we still finished it in about 45 minutes. I have come to love running (well, jogging really), and wished I could have ran more of it, but it was so nice to hang out with girlfriends rather than go off on my own. I think the Dirty Girl is a great mud run to try if you've never done one before! It's only 5k, the obstacles aren't too hard (and you can go around), it's not timed, and it's for women only. I felt great afterwards, not sore or too tired. We had gone early, too, to volunteer for 3 hours before our wave so we get a free registration for another one. So I hope to do it again next year!
Doing this and feeling this great afterwards reminds me how far I've come since my younger years. Running was unthinkable when I was a teen (I'd joke I'd only run if a bear was chasing me!). Going out doing a 5k, let alone a mud run, would have made me laugh! I never would do anything that challenged me or took me out of my comfort zone. So I'm proud of myself. I didn't feel challenged physically, but that's because of how far I've come - I'm in so much better shape than I've ever been. So when those bad thoughts pop up in my head, I now have another positive one to counter them with.
That's what doing races is about for me. It's a deposit in my positive thinking bank account. I may not be "perfect" the way I expect myself to be, but I can't take away these experiences I've created for myself - they're indisputable proof that I'm doing well!