Sunday, August 04, 2013
You know I keep wondering why I've always felt soo restless. And I have one million reasons for joining the navy, but I think I've uncovered the heart of it all. I'm sitting here at a party where ppl are drinking and doing drugs and im miserable. I'm underneath an amazing sky full of beautiful stars and all I want to do is cry. Why? Because I want to finally be somewhere where I fit in. And this isn't it. I want people that think like I do and challenge me to dig deeper. As much as I want to fit in here, this isn't me by any means. I need peace. I need people with hopes and dreams not that people don't have these but i need to challenge my mind. I need to keep feeding it.
I don't need to feel miserable to "have a good time" and I'm starting to realize that I can't do this anymore. I am who I am and I won't change it anymore to fit the picture that other people have.