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Saturday, August 03, 2013

Today I am feeling the "toxic guilt." The past few days, I have been eating more than I should have and I did not track my food all week. I 'm pretty sure I have PMS. This morning I weighed myself and I was up 1.5 lbs., the first time i have gained since April. I know in my head it is water weight and it's no big deal... but today was the first weigh in for my summer challenge and I am ashamed that I have gained. I feel terrible. I have been justifying and arguing in my head all day about it.

I have been re- reading some Spark articles about guilt and getting back on track.

I will list here some positive thoughts to negate the @^!*storm of negativity in my head.

1. It's a small bump in the road. Keep going.
2. You can't fail if you don't give up.
3. Every day is a chance to start again.
4. I have already lost 22 lbs. Woo Hoo!
5. Everyone has bad days or bad weeks, even those who have lost over 100 lbs. They just kept going.
6. I am a human, therefore not perfect, just like everyone else.
7. Expecting perfection is a losing game.
8. It's a marathon, not a sprint. One week's weight is inconsequential.
9. I want this (health) more than I want to give in to my urges to eat.
10. I always come back anyways, it will be so much better to come back now rather than in a year.
11. I am doing this to save my life, it is important.
12. I can do this.

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  • TREV1964
    I might have something here that may help you.

    If I make a small gain I don't register it - I consider myself at the weight I have achieved at my lowest point.

    I then use that point to aim for to try and crack another weight beneath it so I can lower my weight bar once again.

    I find by doing this you focus on the dropping of the bar to the next marker. I have sometimes been 2kg (5lbs) over my marker but that makes me even more determined to move that bar down once again.

    A bit like a limbo dancer lowers his bar to achieve the next level - He doesn't raise it up by six inches the first time he misses the clearance - he keeps on trying at the existing lower level.

    You are doing great - hold in there - because you are doing all the right things and time will eventually confirm this and reward you accordingly.



    1561 days ago

    Comment edited on: 8/10/2013 1:31:46 PM
    Don't allow the perfect to be the enemy of the good! What you have accomplished is great and the scale is not always the best measurement. Try a list of your non-scale victories and take your measurements. Has your blood pressure improved? My scale shows no weight loss, yet when i do my measurements I have lost 1/2 inch from both my stomach and my hips. Best wishes for continued SUCCESS.
    1566 days ago
  • ROCKLAND2010
    Excellent list for positive reinforcement!
    1567 days ago
    I understand about struggling. I have gained for the past 5 weeks. I still refuse to quit. Each morning I wake up and swear I will be on track. Unfortunately, by the time I get home I have lost my motivation. I have no excuses as I live alone and do not have to take care of anyone but myself, and my dog.

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    1567 days ago
    You can do it. I have faith in you.
    1567 days ago

    It is not the falling down that matters, it is the getting up again that counts! You have got this girl! Consider it was an enjoyable break and get back on track guilt-free! emoticon emoticon
    1568 days ago
    You have already lost 22 pounds, that is wonderful!

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    1568 days ago
    It happens to everyone. No biggie. Just emoticon
    1568 days ago
  • CHERYLA2012
    Part of the reason it's so important to make new habits is so that they are the ones we fall back on - instead of the negative self-defeating ones we used to have.

    I hope you you tell the negative chorus in your head to pipe down and just focus on doing what it is you know you need to do.

    You will get there!
    1568 days ago
    Today, I see many of SP friends are experiencing some kind of set back. This is a 2nd. blog about having difficulty. Me too I've gained 1.5 as well and was bit down this morning. But thanks for posting positive thought. We'll do better next week.
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    1568 days ago
    When I have a setback these are my words of wisdom: "Just keep swimming", Dory-Finding Nemo. emoticon
    1568 days ago
    I'm having similar issues. I always find it hard over the summer holidays when I'm not working & don't have a routine. But we don't have an alternative except to try & carry on do we? I liked the comment about the dishes. That reminded me of another analogy I heard once: if you stumble going down some stairs you don't decide to give up & throw yourself down the rest. That one made me laugh. x
    1568 days ago
  • KACAR51
    You really can do this! One step at a time! emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1568 days ago
    Hey there Girl! Today is a new day. No worries. Just get back on track and it will all balance out. Don't let one little tilt of the scale bother you. This is a life-long program, remember? There will be lots of scale movement -- and not always on the direction you had hoped!

    You've knocked off 22 lb already!!!!! emoticon emoticon

    You know how to do it. Be kind to yourself! You and your body are learning all kinds of new things. One of them is there will be ups and downs. Keep it going! You can do it!
    1568 days ago
    I like #10 too. You can give up or move forward. Moving forward is better!

    1568 days ago
    Good points. I especially like #10 and have used a variation of that for years. It is so true.

    I also ask myself something I've heard a lot about falling off a program or making a mistake: If you break a dish do you go ahead and smash all the dishes in the cupboard or do you just calmly sweep up the few broken pieces of the one dish and move on?

    1568 days ago
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