Saturday, August 03, 2013
This has been quite the week. I felt very ill on Sunday, but since I'm the only staff that works the weekend, I toughed through it, but on Monday I was sent home from work! I passed out for over three hours when I got home, and started to feel better after that.... Tuesday I had an appointment with an internal medicine specialist, Wednesday my aunt and uncle arrived from Ohio, and Thursday I had an appointment with my new OBGYN. Busy week!
I didn't feel like I was in the right place on Tuesday, and fully admitted that I suspected that I should be at an endocrinologist, not internist. The lovely doctor agreed with me, but did a full work up anyhow before saying that she suspects that I may have endometriosis. She has told me to stop taking pain medication because it may be irritating my stomach lining, and has prescribed some medication to try to repair any damage my pill-popping did. I'm also going in for another ultrasound, this time for my gall bladder. My primary and the internist had noted bloating and sensitivity in that area, so it's a precaution! I've looked in to endometriosis, and I definitely have a lot of the symptoms, however, everyone is in agreement that there is most certainly something hormonal going on too... so we're still looking!
Thursday's appointment was interesting to say the least. My OBGYN is all but convinced that I have PCOS. She lamented how poorly this syndrome is named, and that studies have shown that as little as 25-30% of women with PCOS actually have cysts on their ovaries! I have a whole new set of blood work ordered yet again, this time focusing in on my hormone levels. I may have an official diagnosis soon, or we will for sure know that it is NOT PCOS. Either way, it's an answer! After much discussion, I am accepting that she wants me to be on birth control for the next six months. One of the reasons I started this doctor journey is because my husband and I have not been able to achieve pregnancy. I don't really want to be on birth control, but I'm trying to look at this as an opportunity. My husband can get tested during this time, to see if there are any hurdles from his end, I will get my period regulated again, and it gives me a deadline to go whole hog for food and fitness.
I've been very discouraged/bothered as more and more labels get added to my medical profile. Diabetic (very borderline, but the pre-diabetic diagnosis has been removed from the medical lexicon), obesity, infertility, possible PCOS, possible endometriosis, possible high blood pressure... in two months I've gone from nothing to disaster! Something I'm trying to focus on is the FACT that everything I've been diagnosed with is treatable/reversible.
I have to focus on the FACT that am in control of this situation, and though it has been ridiculously difficult to lose weight in the past, the low amylose diet seems to be quite effective, so it's time to get serious. No more gluten, bye bye majority of grains, catch you later below ground veggies! When I felt really thrown and upset, I stopped my yoga challenge, and I need to get back to it. My stress/anxiety levels are high, and it's just a FACT that yoga has been a big help! Gotta keep working out regularly, and I really need to add in strength training again.
So I have a plan. Have I had plans in the past? Abso-freaking-lutely. The don't always go AS planned, now do they? Haha. But I just have to keep focused and take everything one day at a time. I have to stick to my plan and get my husband on board to help me out. I'm hopeful that the tests will come back conclusive, and I'll be on the right track for answers. I like to have a tangible thing to fight/work through!