Friday, August 02, 2013
Down 2 lbs. *SMILES* which means I'm at 202.6 this week. NICELY DONE!
I think my body is trying to stabilize at this weight. I've been here for a long, long time. Plus, my latest blood tests show that my thyroid is now in normal ranges so the doctor won't be adjusting the dosage.
I am also down in inches and it shows, plus I feel it. Sunday night I slid on a pair of jeans that have generally been snug in the past put felt fabulous that night. In addition to that, a friend who sees me a lot commented that my shape is changing. Attention from men has increased as well.
This week I have finally allowed myself to admit a few things ...
*I have slowly been slipping into a depression. All the signs are there and I'm breathing through it on a daily basis. There are two root causes that have opened this door again but they are not topics to be discussed in "public."
*I've lost that loving feeling for workouts ... root cause, see above. Plus, now that I've moved to a different city it's harder - not impossible - to make it to my other gym. I'm currently scouting out a new location - whether it be in "town" or by my office. I'll feel better once I'm sweating again.
*I miss boxing. I miss it like a school girl misses her boyfriend when she's on vacation with her parents and there is no cell service. I'm currently looking for a replacement class. I'll feel better once one has been found.
*I'm more aware of others actions as I sit quietly in my own emotion. Sometimes I'm not impressed and I just want to walk away.
*I feel beautiful and amazing at 202.6!
*I dipped into my stash of chocolates at home and discovered it's no longer the forbidden treat. That doesn't mean it needs to be replaced though.
*I'm tired - see above for root cause.
Next step ...
Finding my giggle again