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*I feel beautiful and amazing at 202.6!

Friday, August 02, 2013

Down 2 lbs. *SMILES* which means I'm at 202.6 this week. NICELY DONE!

I think my body is trying to stabilize at this weight. I've been here for a long, long time. Plus, my latest blood tests show that my thyroid is now in normal ranges so the doctor won't be adjusting the dosage.

I am also down in inches and it shows, plus I feel it. Sunday night I slid on a pair of jeans that have generally been snug in the past put felt fabulous that night. In addition to that, a friend who sees me a lot commented that my shape is changing. Attention from men has increased as well.

This week I have finally allowed myself to admit a few things ...
*I have slowly been slipping into a depression. All the signs are there and I'm breathing through it on a daily basis. There are two root causes that have opened this door again but they are not topics to be discussed in "public."
*I've lost that loving feeling for workouts ... root cause, see above. Plus, now that I've moved to a different city it's harder - not impossible - to make it to my other gym. I'm currently scouting out a new location - whether it be in "town" or by my office. I'll feel better once I'm sweating again.
*I miss boxing. I miss it like a school girl misses her boyfriend when she's on vacation with her parents and there is no cell service. I'm currently looking for a replacement class. I'll feel better once one has been found.
*I'm more aware of others actions as I sit quietly in my own emotion. Sometimes I'm not impressed and I just want to walk away.
*I feel beautiful and amazing at 202.6!
*I dipped into my stash of chocolates at home and discovered it's no longer the forbidden treat. That doesn't mean it needs to be replaced though.
*I'm tired - see above for root cause.

Next step ...
Finding my giggle again

  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

EG8383 8/5/2013 9:58AM

  you are beautiful and amazing. The yucky feelings will pass. You can always talk privately, don't forget that. Hugs my friend. I hope you shake things off and things start to look up again real soon. emoticon

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TRYSCHE13 8/2/2013 8:28PM

    Hang in there, things will get better.

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DOOLEYBABE 8/2/2013 7:29PM

    Depression suck! I'm sorry you're dealing with that right now. Just try to remember that exercise is suppose to help with depression. I love the fact that you feel beautiful and amazing at your current body weight. I love you see a women with strong self esteem!

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BLUEANGELLK 8/2/2013 7:28PM

    Sounds like you have a lot of changes you are adapting to. You know what you need to do to help alleviate some of you symptoms. Take care of YOU!!!!

So impressed with your 202.6. I can't wait until I know what that feels like. Enjoy the lightness of being healthier and fitter!!

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