****30 DAY CHALLENGE****
1. blog progress/setbacks
2. drink water EVERY DAY not just weekdays.
3. Avoid alcohol like the plague
4. better balance on veggies over fruits
5. lean meats & protein galore.
6. ABSOLUTELY NO GLUTEN.
7. log calories
8. Run once/week
Didn't log calories yesterday. Honestly it's just a PIA when you make a recipe (paleo banana pancakes) and I don't feel like bothering with the hassle. Logging calories in general is very tedious after a while.
I noticed i missed an entire DAY of logging, on Weds. Oops.
Anyway. Had some popcorn last night, just a couple handfuls. While there is no gluten in it, it is a grain, and i try to avoid corn anymore. Oh well. Also had a glass of wine. Not gonna lie, that wine helped me sleep soooooo good, and I didn't even wake up with a sore back like I've been the past couple weeks. Wonder what that's about?
Anyway, I did run today (yay!) and it was good. Felt pretty energized.
Overall, this week has kicked my butt: Made a dumb mistake at work that caused some grief.
I know we're all human and everything, but I spend my days correcting OTHER people's mistakes, so I feel pretty upset about the whole thing. Boss is none too pleased, and the worst part is, i know this is the one and only time i've made this mistake, but in his head, he is thinking....."has this happened before?" and that bothers me more than anything else. Ugh. I HATE MAKING WORK MISTAKES!!!!!!!! I feel i have pretty good job security, but when you support your family, well, the mistakes are a little more detrimental to your metal well-being you know? I mean, DH loses his job, he finds another and we adjust. I have put ALL my eggs in this single basket: I did not finish my degree because earning potential at this job was DOUBLE what my degree would earn me, and leaving is not a voluntary option because NO ONE else could even come close to matching this salary with no masters to back up my experience. Triple UGH.
Also, I've been feeling pretty good lately, leaner, less bloated, my size 8 jeans are comfortable, been working on the whole "body acceptance" thing, and really felt like I was making progress. And then I got a view of myself today I don't normally get (an over the shoulder glimpse in the bathroom mirror) and all of a sudden all the old self-hate came crashing back in. Maybe hate is a strong word, but I instantly started mentally bashing myself. Amazing to me how you can try to build yourself up for WEEKS and one SECOND is all it takes to undo it.
Ack. I think i'm gonna chalk it all up to a stressful, rotten week. I know it's silly to whine & moan about it, but damn, sometimes being an adult is just so freaking overrated it isn't funny. Stress upon stress upon more stress.
This too shall pass, right?