Friday, August 02, 2013
It's probably obvious that I've been off track. You can pretty much guarantee that whenever I go on an extended spark hiatus, it means I'm not doing well fitness-wise. I went through a pretty big rough patch this summer. There's no point in going into all the gory details but the general gist is that we had some serious financial issues and I had some serious mental health issues. So my eating took a big nosedive.
I got on some medication which seems to be at least somewhat helpful and we're working our way out of the hole a little but I still haven't got back on track. I feel absolutely terrible though. My skin is all broken out. I feel bloated and gross and all the other things that come along with a gluten sensitivity I'm now convinced that I have. I'm ready to start taking care of myself again.
The problem is that I just started back to work (NOOOOOOOOO!!!) and I know it's going to be hard to make eating healthy a priority while working full time. I want to do the whole30 again but I'm already doubting myself about it just because I know how much thought and prep needs to go into it and I struggled with it even when I was home all day. Plus, I can already tell that this year is going to be really stressful. Tons of changes I'm not very excited about. What kind of impact that will have on my goals, I have no idea yet. But I definitely can't keep eating pizza and donuts so I'm just gonna have to give it my best shot. I don't have any idea how much weight I've gained on this binge. My clothes are tight and it's pretty depressing but compared with everything else I've been dealing with, it's kind of bottom of the list right now.
Anyway my plan is to start on Monday. I'm compiling a grocery list now and hopefully I can get some things prepped over the weekend and just dive right in on Monday. I feel like I was so close to really getting myself together when I did the whole30. I hate that life knocked me down again but I just can't stay down. That's the important thing.