Friday, August 02, 2013
so sleepy. almost done, then one more twelve.
im so over this. lost 13, gained 7. boo. and i cant get it back off. i made a goal to be the best i can be by end of the year. i should not get disheartened.....yes yes.... i just made that a word hahahahaha! but, anyway. im working out 5 times a week. 30-60 min cardio, running or elliptical, swimming etc. then i do enough weights on one or two muscle groups to tire me out, challenging weight too. idk. everyone is like oh its muscle, but im like omg i expect results so much faster than i get them. i was just looking at my tummy fat and was really depressed. im just tired. yay night shift.
anyway, its getting easier at my job. i get what i have to do now. now everyday is just a guessing game and a challenge to see what all i can get done and what all needs done etc. man. i have an easy team right now thank goodness. only one vented patient on the floor right now, and he is vent dependent for life which is sad, but he has made leaps and bounds other than that.
excited for school to start. i know its hard work, but ive been getting more depressed as the weeks go on, i think its cuz i have nothing to take up my time. not used to sitting around all day on my days off work. tuesday i have an info seminar at school about the nursing program. i have to get this validation form thingy from the seminar saying i went before i can even apply to the program. i wont be set until after spring semester, so im going to try to apply for the next fall semester. i guess they dont have a waiting list anymore either. which is awesome. anyway. im so over being awake right now. four more hours, go home, sleep for 5, get up, do it over again.