Friday, August 02, 2013
I've finally drug myself back onto the eating healthier and being more active wagon. Yee hah! I even stayed within my calorie range (averaged over the past 7 days). That even included a three day mini vacation and eating at a fabulous buffet every night. I'm pretty proud just because that showed planning and commitment: packing fruit and healthy snacks asks banking calories so I could really enjoy the prime rib, salmon, and tasty deserts!
However, over the past months, actually since Phil was in the hospital in March, I struggled with weird (for me) binges. In the past I gained all my weight with pedestrian overeating, a diet rich in fats and salt. On the day I took him to the emergency room, I didn't eat a thing until he got checked in to the VA hospital at 9:30 that night. I stopped at Safeway on my way home, bought a box of cookies from the bakery and ate all of them before going to bed. I made healthy fast food choices over the next week such as Subway and Panda Express, but continued binging on cookies every night. After he was released, I continued with the sugar, and he joined in. As the spring progressed and the school year school year drew to its ever-stressful conclusion, I added binging on alcohol into the mix and that behavior continued through the 4th of July. I continued sparking, drinking plenty of water, and eating pretty well during the day, but all bets were off in the evening. I has few good days sprinkled here and there throughout the spring and early summer, but most were pittiful attempts. I've been working hard to regain healthier habits through July and finally had a whole week that was successful. Big questions remain: why did I binge, what triggered that behavior, what are the warning signs, how will I avoid that repetitive behavior in the future?
Sparkhugs to my Sparkbrothers and Sparksisters!