Thursday, August 01, 2013
Today I have felt somewhat bored by my food choices and wishing I could just "eat like everyone else". The "everyone else" may indeed be mythical but I did venture down the "poor me" type of thinking (rabbit hole).
It then hit me that why should I feel deprived for making healthy choices and doing the right thing for my body and my family. This will ultimately affect the quality of my life and my ability to earn money, enjoy vacations, do more with friends and family - in short - participate in life more. I often feel as if I am in the sidelines, watching the parade go by, and I am expected to clap. That too, is "poor me" thinking, and dangerous at that, as I completely dismiss the experiences of others as "better" than mine, and I haven't a clue what battle they are fighting. I need to be able to be happy for others and less disgruntled about whatever situation I find myself in. There is always a gift of learning.
I don't feel deprived that I have to follow a speed limit. It is the right thing to do, and driving rules are in place for a reason, so that destinations can be reached as safely as possible. I don't feel deprived that I would only take a recommended amount of medication. That is necessary for it to function and not cause adverse effects. I don't feel deprived that I had to study to pass course material and submit only my work, etc. Students are held to a standard for the benefit of themselves and society. (I want the surgeon doing my C-section, to be proficient). These rules when you take them out and look at them, are obvious, and logical.
Why should I feel deprived, because I have finally chosen a different path? I have chosen to do the right thing, because it is the right thing to do. Ignoring my body's signals was oblivious behaviour.
I want to pay more attention, to life. I want to live, not just exist. I want to be engaged, not just tread water.
So when I have a treat I will work it into my tracker, and when I do not, I will not feel hard done by.
I will be glad when doing the right thing is effortless.