Thursday, August 01, 2013
I've been fairly quiet on sp lately. I'm still plugging along. I'm still here.
Since I got serious about Highland Games (If you don't know what they are, let me know, I can post a few links or you could look back a few blogs for info), I've been training to build muscle and not trying to lose weight. It's okay. I'm holding steady with the weight. I know that I've gained muscle and lost size and that is more important to me right now than the number on a scale.
But I do know that I still can't go back to the way I used to eat.
2 days ago on my way home I stopped at a grocery store that is on the high end of prices. Couldn't bring myself to pay the ridiculously high produce rates. Made my round of the store and saw a great deal on ice cream. Local, organic, yummy flavor, over a half gallon was priced LESS than a pint of Ben and Jerry's. I figured I could make it last several weeks... So I bought it.
With a pint, I can portion it and make it last. This BIG tub, I went back for seconds, then thirds... barely made a dent.
This morning, I threw away what was left. If you know how much I despise wasting food, you'll know how much that pained me. But it was the knowledge that even after all this time I STILL need to pay attention, to control my portions, to watch my intake even if I'm not watching the scale.
Better days, better nutrition, lessons still to learn, demons to conquer. I slayed one of those demons today. And for that I am thankful!