Wednesday, July 31, 2013
I look at other member's Spark Pages and there hasn't been any activity for months or years. I wonder if anyone ever looks at mine and feels the same way? We start out inspired and determined to loose weight, to get healthier, to save our life and then we quit? I hope a lot of the people whose Spark Pages I looked at tonight have been successful. Maybe they just decided SP wasn't for them or they got too busy to update their S pages. Maybe they found another avenue to weight loss and didn't feel the need to be on SP anymore. Or maybe like me they quit trying. They decided it was too difficult and they would leave it for another day. Maybe next Monday or on August the first I'll start trying again. I've been waiting for "that day" for about 30 years now and have continued adding more and more weight to my body the longer I wait to start "trying". If I'm not trying then it doesn't count as failure, does it? Depressing thought alert....maybe some of those people are no longer among the living because they quit trying and waited too long to start trying again. That could be me. I've been pretty lucky, health-wise but my luck is starting to run out. I'm getting older. I'm at my heaviest. I need to start doing a little everyday and quit thinking about it as something I start and stop. I've always thought at my weight it will take a big change for me to lose it. Well, it will but who says the big change can't be made up by little changes....one at a time.
When you aren't making any progress it doesn't seem worth it to blog. I mean what is there to update? Nope...haven't lost any weight...still the same place I was when I started. Don't want to make any big statements about how I'm now determined and things will be different this time. I hate failure. Hope I haven't depressed anyone with this. I read success stories on here. People do lose weight. They do get healthier and lots of them say if I can do it anyone can. Mostly I read about peoples' struggles. They start, there are successes and failures. Sometimes they quit and some are continuing to try again and again and again. It's never a done deal. Some lose a lot of weight and regain some or even regain it all....and some of those same people keep trying. I'm trying to get the strength and inspiration to try again. To try to take some small steps and take it one day at a time. It helps me to know I'm not alone. I wish each of you success!!!!