You'd think I would be an expert at this... understanding the whole "things taking time" concept... but like anyone, I am impatient.
So I get anxiety.
So I get wrapped up in my head.
So I get stressed.
And while I am in that solitary world of self-inflicted hell... life is really not that bad as it seems, and I am missing out on a beautiful life... beautiful moments that are being passed by.... all because of my anxiousness for things to "get back to normal".
But guess what? sometimes....things just take time.
Eventually, things will work themselves out, like they ALWAYS do.
And I will be sitting here posting another blog about it once again.
But it's when it's actually HAPPENING that people (in general) absolutely lose it - they lose touch with their support groups that are there and WILLING to listen and encourage; they lose touch with the beauty around them - the clear sky, their kid's laugher, the joy of doing something they alone love; they lose the focus of what is good, what is healthy even... all because of stress.
Yup, it has happened to me recently. And that is OK. This time, (in betweenm and yes, during my freak-outs), I leaned on my family... a lot. I leaned on my mother-in-law, my sister-in-law, my husband, my sister, my friends too - you could not even imagine how friends came through for my whole FAMILY on this last camping trip - let's just say that every vehicle we own to tow our pop-up was out of commission, and out of the blue, our friend insisted we use their truck! While the hubby was getting the truck, our other friend put us up in their camper! Seriously... like a sign from God.
But I digress... Today, my mantra was this: things take time.
Things take time to adjust.
Things take time to take hold.
Things take time to smooth out.
Things take time to become routine.
Things take time to level off.
Things take time to become the new normal.
Some people LOVE living in an upheaval....I do not.
But I will say that sometimes, upheaval makes you grow in different ways, to try new things, to say to yourself that you HAVE that skill.... that you HAVE a talent and a gift that NOONE else has because you are... well, YOU.
I started Sparkpeople with some trepidation in 2008. I had nothing to lose except the weight. So I followed the program and did my best. I took 2 steps forward and 1 step back for months to get used to things. 5 to 6 months really...but eventually, things stuck.
Today, I eat to live, instead of living to eat.... even now that I am a hot mess because of stress! LOL
THAT is progress!
And in 6 months, either things will be good, or they will need to be tweaked again, but I'm going to give it some time... I have nothing to lose!
So things here are good. The job is OK, the new venture is launching tomorrow, I have a schedule that works with my family life... all of these are good things.
Going to be thankful for the good in the now... grateful for the life I have... grateful for the life I have lived thus far.
So that's the update Sparkers.... I am still here and alive....still 133-ish, still cyclical exercising (actually not at all at the moment! LOL)... but Sparking on the side. I hope you all don't mind.
PS - I'm envious of my husband's excitement and joy he gets from football season - it's his destressor... he and my SIL said I needed to find "my joy" - music is one, writing is another... and so is Sparking! How fun is that!?! I just realized that now.