Wednesday, July 31, 2013
On Saturday, July 27, I moved into a basement apartment in the house of family. This will give my partner and I a chance to pay for his schooling while also paying off my student loans at a good clip. Plus, these people are great and their kitchen looks like an Ikea catalogue.
The downside? I have a lot less control over what I eat and when and how much. It's more difficult to say no, to eat alternative foods, to scale down in portion, to balance my hunger, etc -- both for practical reasons and emotional ones.
The first few days were pretty high calorie... over my baseline. Luckily, I was super active with the move and then a day at the zoo, so it balanced overall.
I did fail in my objective to resume my workout video (Jillian Michaels' 30 Day Shred Level 2) on Monday... but I started it up again today, so, way to go, me! But I have been walking every day. I have to say though... a week off strength and cardio training, even with a lot of walking, made for a very challenging workout!
Yesterday, I picked up some food for lunches that fits into my plan. Since my family is gone during the day anyway, lunch is one meal I have control over... as long as I do make the effort to get and prepare my own food, instead of eating their artisan cheeses and crackers (or something equally caloric).
It also turns out that I have some control over breakfasts. This was unexpected, and I haven't taken advantage of it yet. I'm sort of trying to replicate their breakfast, but at a lower calorie count. However, I may have to go full back onto my other plan -- we'll see! I don't want to deny myself all the good food, but I am pretty serious about getting healthy and fit and also losing weight. If that means I can't have bakery bread & fancy yoghurts in the morning, then that is what that means.
I have no control over dinner, short of refusing to eat something that my family makes, or only eating some of it and claiming that I'm full and then sneaking something lighter later.
Going back to my short-term goals:
1. Drink all my water... still working on this!
2. Maintain workouts through the move... fail(ish). But I've resumed, so no matter! Now, to keep doing it daily!
3. Find a way to eat a reasonable number of calories, while staying calm and happy and not too anxious or hungry. I don't want to be so close to my baseline daily that I can never go out to eat or have dessert or something. I'd like to be able to lose, but would settle for maintaining. Still working on this balance, but making some progress.
In the meantime, I'm trying not to get too frustrated or scared that everything is just derailed. I knew all of this was going to happen and it's early days yet!