Wednesday, July 31, 2013
I feel down. I think it's because of so many changes in my life..all at once. None have happened yet but I can feel them looming closer. And, they aren't necessarily bad changes..just change. Also, Ben is going to Sturgis for a week with his brother and two best friends. All are responsible but i'm going to miss him.
Our house is officially on the market. It hit the internet yesterday. We went with remax. It's really priced to sell so i'm thinking it may sell quickly..which is stressful to me. It may not happen but I just have a gut feeling about it. Which has been wrong occasionally before..but not usually. Add to that..I joined a temp service and am waiting to be called to work at a factory in town. I have some people on the inside who can pull strings so I have a feeling it won't be long before i'm working full time. And, the kids go back to school in about a week and a half. WHERE did the summer go??!!!
Add to all that...IF the house sells then we'll have to move to a different town(where we want to move) and move the kids from this school to that one...after it's already started and we've already paid. And, I found out a few days ago that another of my friends..who I've not seen in a long time(she moved across the country)...that her marriage is over. Her husband left her for somebody he worked with who was 20 years younger. It's just sad. She gave up all of her own dreams to work and put him through vet school so that later in life he could make enough so that she could pursue her own dreams. And, then look what he did. Now, she is alone while he is shacked up with some young hoochie. People should be ashamed. It just seems like nobody is anymore.
All I hear about is bad stuff lately. I need some good stuff. A friend here on spark told me about a website called www.happify.com. I applied for membership this morning. lol. I NEED some happy help!
And, I do realize that all this isn't the end of the world and things will turn out good in the end. I feel that. I think we are being blessed, to be honest. And, I appreciate that..and everything else I have in my life. I just wish that others around us weren't going through such sad/hard times also. But, in life some of our situations are ones that we made for ourselves by making bad selfish choices. That is a fact. And, sometimes we have to get ourselves out of them that way we learn our lessons. Give me a week or two and I'll be my happy perky self again. Maybe sooner.
I may make some tomato juice and can it today. My garden is really pumping out some nice tomatoes this year. yay! And, the grapevine is loaded down with grapes. Not ripe yet but they will be before long. I should be able to replenish my supply of grape jam and tomato juice. This may be the last year that I have access to my own grapes so I plan on making a ton of jam.