ha-ha! did i fool you? didja think i got a new job?
well, KINDA, i did...
i have been "starting over" with my fitness journey, i can't even TELL you how many times.
. i have tried SO many different ways to make it stick. the longest i have "stayed on track", was about 8 months, and i DID almost get to my goal weight/fitness level (missed it by two pounds!), that was about 4-5 years ago.
since then, i have tried, the "buddi sysytem" with friends, but it always fell apart
. i think it is because i want it so bad, i give it 110%, and it is my main focus, i think it overwhelms people. then i have tried, to do it by myself, without telling anyone. that didn't work, not being accountable to anyone
, i would give up. i have tried strict diets, well, OBVIOUSLY, they don't work, you gotta start eating real food sometime
. the only time i did succeed, and it lasted the 8 months, was on here with sparks, while doing the biggest loser at work. well, i have done sparks a few times since, but have dropped off the face of the earth, every time, when the guilt starts...
so, i was yet again trying to figure out a way to make it stick... how could i do that?
i started thinking about things that i have succeeded at in the past. karate is one
, family is another
, my marriage
, my faith
... all of these things i LOVE, that is why i have succeeded at. there is one thing that i have excelled at, and i hate it... that is my job.
. i mean i find it rewarding, but for the most part, it is taxing and draining on every level. but i excel, why is this?
it is my work ethic, i HAVE to go to work, i HAVE to be on time, i HAVE to do a great job. that is how i am. now, i don't want my fitness journey to be something i hate and have to do... NO!
but i think of one of my goals. it is to be a fitness/self defense instructor/fitness coach.
i really want this, and i know i would love it...
so, i have decided to take this fitness journey as my career. what does jillian michaels(biggest loser coach) have to do? she has to eat right
, and exercise
, she has to be a good example all the time (or at least 99% of the time).
so, i have decided that since i want this, i need to treat it like my job. that means i hafta work out, i hafta eat right, at least 95% of the time. i won't want to teach all that stuff until i can be a good example. yes, i know that you can be over weight and teach, but i feel better about myself, and i think i would teach better(more self confident) if i was in good shape (see? i didn't say GREAT shape, but that would be cool, too)! also, in the future, showing pictures to my students of where i used to be, and the transformation, might motivate and inspire them, too.
so far, it has worked.
i have been exercising more, and walking more (to get 7,500-10,000 steps a day), eating right and trying to get better sleep. now, i don't know how long this mind set will work for, but it is getting me started in the right direction.
my goal to be a fitness/self defense instructor/fitness coach IS possible, i CAN do it, i HAVE to do it. this is what works for me! so, do i have a new CAREER? why, heck yes, i do! my current hospital job is to support my family, and i am doing that until my real love, my real passion is reality.
i gotta get back to "work" have a great day!