Tuesday, July 30, 2013
OKies, so last week went surprisingly well considering my weird emotional state. I stayed (mostly) within my calorie range each week day and only splurged on the weekend. I like this balance. Allows me not to feel cheated out of anything that I want. I was able to get an aqua class + laps after, another night of swimming and some walking around this weekend in to my work out routine. Also logged in about 6-7 pounds lost. :)
Going strong on week 2. I have an odd sense of clarity after a couple of weeks of feeling emotionally compromised. Not really sure how to explain it but for the last two weeks I have not felt like myself. Yesterday and Sunday were pretty bad. I kept it all in cause I knew I'd eventually work through it.
Monday nights work out was VERY helpful. Got to do a class, swim some laps then hang with my ladies in the hot tub for a bit. Having people go with me to help motivate me is very much a blessing and I appreciate them! But it also gave me the endorphin rush to help give that final kick to get me out of my weird state... That and the good cry I had in the car after work and just before the work out.... Lol. Sometimes a good cry is cleansing.
Have gotten into the habit of prepping my meals for work the night before. Hoping I keep it up. I'm liking the snacks I am taking but will probably be changing it up soon. :)
I still have a lot of stress and anxiety about a number of things right now, but at least this is one small thing I am feeling good about. Praying that I can keep it up. I have been needing this motivation for a long time. My goal is to drop about 70 pounds by the new year (which means about 55-60 pounds by my birthday) so we shall see how it goes. Though I realize its not so much about the loss as it is about feeling better, being healthier, having more confidence and just feeling desirable... Oh, and fitting in to this lovely black and white summer dress I bought months ago thinking, "It fits, but with about 20/30 pounds gone it will look lovely." So I bought it and made it a "goal dress." Happy day when I can wear it and feel pretty in it. ;)
Ta-ta for now!