I have been struggling for awhile now. By reading blogs I think an awful lot of us on SP have been struggling. You would think that summer time is the easiest time to lose weight. You have so many activities to do, swimming, outdoors, plenty of fresh fruits and veggies. Yet, so many of us struggle in the summer. Is it the heat, is it all the good food available, ice cream etc. I read a blog yesterday that turned the whole idea of struggling around. Struggling can be a positive thing because it means that you haven't given up on yourself. That is positive thinking.
I had a few blows to my positive thinking all in one day. I am on disability so have very limited funds. On Saturday I was watching television when it decided to start turning itself on and off. I thought it was the surge protector so I changed that. Nope, that wasn't it. So I called directv. We went through pressing buttons on the remote, etc, disconnecting wires and connecting them back, unplugging the power for 30 seconds and plugging it back in. Nada. All this time there is no picture and the television is turning itself on and off. I have a sinking feeling it is the television all this time. Well, I am right. We try the DVD player to see if the picture comes on for that which would be it was the satellite box. Nothing. Oh crap, I can't afford a new television.
My computer is messed up, the mouse doesn't work half the time, and I keep getting error messages. My telephone doesn't work properly, you can't hear half the time and it doesn't ring but goes straight to voice mail. When I call about it and it says press 2 for technical support, and I do, it says I didn't press anything and hangs up on me for no response. I need a new battery only hopefully. Those are $19.99 expensive enough.
Yesterday, I called my Mom to see if she called Brianna to see when we were going out to lunch before she goes off to college. My baby is going to college, I can't believe it. She dropped a bomb shell. Her Grandfather died that morning. We just saw him at the graduation party. We knew he had been sick, but didn't expect it so soon. They were very close, both Brianna and Tyler to their grandpa. They called him Coach. He was so involved in his grandkids lives. My Mom said Brianna seemed to be alright, she was babysitting the younger boys, Tyler had gone to be with his grandfather. I don't know how he is going to take this. Brianna said he took him being sick very very hard. He died of lung cancer.
It just brings it all back. Everything that we went through with my Dad. Even though it has been almost 20 years since he has passed from lung cancer, it just brings it all back. We were all by his bedside, as Bill's family was. I talked to my Mom about it and she isn't going to the funeral, she says she can't. It has brought it all back for her too. I feel for his family, even my ex sister in law, but especially for poor Ann. They were married for 53 years and had 9 children. I know how devastated my Mom was and this woman is a wonderful woman. My heart is broken for her.
My Dad passed from lung cancer almost 20 years ago. They are doing so much research into cancer. Donate, donate donate, why hasn't this been eradicated yet? Why are people still dying from cancer?
R.I.P. William Walsh fondly known as "Coach" Walsh