Monday, July 29, 2013
This past weekend I had a lot going on and I was determined to have fun, stay mindful but not be ridged. Mission accomplished.
Friday night the Mr and I went to see Justin Timberlake and Jay Z at Candlestick Park. They are truly talented individuals and yes, they actually sound just as good live as they do on an album. YES! This was our first and likely last stadium concert though. We had good seats but the venue was just too big. We got our monies worth and left happy, happy.
That night I took healthy snacks with me and chose to eat a few chips from the Mr's basket. We skipped the cheese and ate them with salsa and jalapenos.
Saturday afternoon I met up with a girlfriend for a street fair. We had lots of fun walking around for hours looking. While she drank alcohol I was happy with an iced coffee. There was a new food vendor that was preparing corn dogs from scratch - a childhood favorite of mine. I had also brought a healthy snack to this event and snacked it during the day. My friend decided to order a corn dog and offered me a taste. Instead of being ridged I decided to have a taste. It was delicious! Although I could have eaten one myself I didn't go there and I felt good about that decision.
Sunday afternoon/evening a girlfriend and I went to the Kid Rock concert (Uncle Kracker & ZZ Top). I packed a healthy snack again. Yet, when we got to the venue I made the decision to leave the snack in the car. It was a choice I made with a clear mind. Last night I made the choice to drink multiple beers and eat french fries and chicken tenders. *GASP, LOL* I gave myself permission and I made a choice. I'll admit now that the beer was COLD and it was delicious! The fries and chicken were hot and tasty. I don't regret one bite or allowing myself the pleasures of enjoying an experience. I stopped when I had enough and didn't use this as an excuse to go all crazy.
Kid Rock is one of my favorite performers and he didn't disappoint, never does live!!
Today when I got up I had no pangs of "what did I do" or "a crap, I really mucked that up." Nope, I have had the opposite - joy. Sure I indulged last night but I did it with a clear mind and purpose. There really is no need to get all bent about it. The other thing, I am eating responsibly today. I'm minding my calories and carb intake.
I've been stuck ... dwelling on this journey and being stuck ... it sucks the very life out me. I become ridged and brittle with little room left to just live, laugh and experience the moment(s). I've lost my balance and at this time I'm trying to balance things out. This weekend was a perfect reminder of how I can have fun, indulge a bit and then return to business as usual. It really doesn't have to be all or nothing ... this girl can play and feel good about it!