The Gym is My Sanctuary
Monday, July 29, 2013
This morning I woke up in a really good mood, which is strange. Especially for a Monday morning. I think working out really does help my mood. I was off a half day on Friday so after work I ran to the grocery store to pick up some salmon. I have been wanting to try something new, I have never cooked salmon before. I took at a nap after that then had to go meet my sister in law to pick up Abbie from church. She had been at church camp all week. I met Erika and we ended up going to McDonald's so Abbie could get dinner and the kids got an ice cream cone. I got a little aggravated with things and I let that put me in a bad mood. By the time we got home I had to wait for my mom to get home (it was her weekend for the kids and she wasn't there when I got home with them), and that made me even more aggravated. I have no patience lately, I'm not sure why. By the time they got home I was just not in a good mood at all. Michelle called me and I told her I needed to get out of the house so we went to Bob Evans to get dinner. I ate pretty crappy and I knew I shouldn't have but I just had that I don't care attitude. Michelle and I both ordered a 3 course dinner special that they had. I got the salad, potato crusted flounder, mashed potatoes, rolls, and ice cream with caramel topping. It was around 900 calories. I went over my calories for sure. Saturday I tried really hard not to go over my calories. I went to the gym and had an awesome work out. Before I could go to the gym I had to get some laundry done but when I went to start a load my mom was doing some. I got aggravated like you wouldn't believe. She said she had a ton to do. I feel like a brat now but I was so aggravated and couldn't change my attitude. I want to blame it on my period, but I don't know if that's it. after a couple of hours I finally got mine done and headed out to the gym.
As soon as I got there I felt so much better. While I was working out I was thinking about how I feel when I am at the gym. When I am there, I feel like it's my time. No one can bug me and I can focus on myself. I am still on week 4 of the C25K program. During week 4 there is a 5 minute warm up walk, then you run 3 mins, walk 90 secs, run 5 walk 2.5 minutes and repeat it. I decided to take a different approach until I am able to run 5 minutes and be a little more comfortable. On Thursday, when it was time to run 5 minutes I ran 3. I felt pretty comfortable with 3 minutes. On Saturday when it was time to run 5 minutes I ran 3.5 minutes. I still felt pretty comfortable with that time. When I was walking after running the 3. 5 minutes I realized I wasn't nearly as out of breathe as I had been the past few weeks. So tomorrow when I go, I will run for 4 minutes. If that is a struggle I may repeat it for one more day before moving it up to 4.5 minutes. Although I really want to run my first 5k in November, that I have signed up for, I will keep pushing forward and run it when I run it. I will (try) not lose hope of November but if takes longer, so be it. I will run a 5k.
Once I got back from the gym on Saturday I was in a much better mood. I came home and spent some time with the kiddos and then decided to make dinner. I found a recipe for salmon that sounded incredible, and seemed so easy. I have always been so nervous about making fish. I guess just because I've never made it before. This recipe just called for soy sauce, garlic, brown sugar and a little bit of oil. I used the splenda brown sugar stuff to save calories. I mixed it up and marinated the salmon for about 30 minutes then baked it. It was amazing! I will be making this more often. I had green beans with it and wanted to mix those up a but so I added some red pepper flakes and a little bit of the marinade from the salmon after it cooked and those were really good too.
Sunday I went to the gym with my friend Leslie. She was really nervous about going, she's never worked out before. I met her there and after she got signed up for a membership we walked on the treadmill and rode the bikes. We did 40 minutes total. Then we did some of the weights. After the gym I had lunch and lounged around until work. I worked 5-9 and I was really worried about wanting to eat out of boredom. Around 7, eating was all I could think about. I decided I was just going to stop on the way home and get fast food. Well luckily I did talk myself out of that but I did some damage when I got home. I don't know what it is but once it's on my mind I can't stop thinking about it. I ended up bingeing and then felt like crap for blowing my great weekend. I have to figure out how to stop doing that. Well when I got up and weighed myself this morning and no surprise it was up 1 lb. I can't be mad about it. I am the one that made the poor choice. I need to have more willpower. Although I did go up a lb I feel pretty good about my body today. I fit in to another pair of pants that I couldn't fit into before and one of my favorite shirts is getting a tad but big on me. So I will focus on that and be happy. Today is a new day and I am ready for it! I have Zumba tonight and I can't wait! I love Zumba!