Monday, July 29, 2013
As I wrote yesterday, I'm 1 lb away from losing 40 lbs since starting, and that means only 10 lbs away from losing 50. That's what my doctor said I had to lose...but I want to go further.
Since I'm so close to my original final goal, but it doesn't reflect my ultimate goal now I decided I might change my weight loss ticker on my sparkpage/message board posts to reflect how much I really want to lose.
It's a little daunting that I may still have 70 lbs to lose (I'm not 100% sure I will like being 125 lbs...I might stop at 140 or 130, but I have no way of knowing yet and 125 sounds really good to me...because it's far enough away from being too light but healthy enough to give me some room to gain a bit of weight and still be in a healthy range. Ideally though I'd like to maintain it if possible, as long as possible.
I just deleted a weird rant about something I wrote that was me showing a lot of fear about something that's getting way ahead of myself...I really need to think more positively and not let fears control me. I do have my period right now which can make that worse, but that's not a good excuse really.
However, I have to remind myself how good I'm doing right now! I never would have thought I would be reaching my goals of losing 50 lbs this easily and staying so motivated! I'm doing really well in most aspects of my life (except maybe my social life which needs improvement).
My mom tells almost everyone she knows that she runs into when I'm out with her wherever about my successes, and it makes me a bit embarrassed at first but then really proud. My mom is really proud of me and loves to brag about me, that hasn't happened in a while...
I'm so excited to be able to keep doing so well and I think things should feel less daunting as I go on and keep having success.