Admitting I need a Restart
Monday, July 29, 2013
Hey! I am no longer being successful at weight loss. I need to restart.
It's a tough thing to admit. I did a four day cleanse over Memorial day, and while I watched neighbors chow down on hamburgers, beers, and brownies (yum!), I ate small amounts of fruits, vegetables, brown rice, and fish. I came out of that weekend feeling AMAZING. The most important thing that happened was I broke my addiction with sugar. I could pass up sweets in preference of healthier options. Life was pretty good. :)
But then I drank a few sweet drinks out of a feeling of obligation. They were good. Then I ate a few other sweet things, maybe not because of any pressure, but because they were there. Soon enough I was looking for anything that had sugar. I didn't have true sweets in the house, but I was desperate and eating things like the chocolate chips in the baking supplies. Life wasn't so good. :(
I'm hoping to turn things around. I realize that once I admit I have this problem, it doesn't make any sense not to do something about it immediately. So after a weekend of sneaking candy and having dessert and wine and lemonade, I'm holding myself accountable. I bought all the supplies for another four day cleanse and I'm starting again.
I guess I know that I'll never be free of this addiction to sugar. There is no "just one" full sugar margarita. I make my own choices and hold myself accountable. No one can pressure me into doing something I don't want to do.
Whew. Glad that's over. If this cleanse was anything like the last one, day three is going to be a doozy!
See you on the other side!