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Thank God I'm Struggling!

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Monday, July 29, 2013




For the past ten days, I have been really struggling to stay on track with my eating. Okay, confession...I have been binge eating.

This month started out so great! My Spark buddy Tammy and I started doing the 30 Day Shred on July first. I was so focused on putting my best into that workout, and on eating as healthy as I possibly could. I was doing great for the first two and a half weeks...but now my eating is totally out of control. What the heck happened?



My hubby was out of work for a year, and the stress of that was really hard for us both. In the past, such stress would have made me totally give up on trying to lose weight and be healthy. But not this time! This time, I forced myself to keep going. I hit a plateau, but I continued to eat right and exercise. The stress was always there, like a knot in my stomach, but I tried to ignore it. Then, two weeks ago, hubby finally got another job! It was such a huge relief to us both to have him working again. But then a funny thing happened...I started to lose control with my eating!

I don't understand why this is happening, why I am going back to my old habit of binge eating. I'm still working out every day, but I can feel that I have gained a few pounds. I don't weigh myself, but my clothes aren't slipping on as easily as they were! So I know my weight has gone up. I'm struggling so hard to get my eating back on track!



Struggling. Some people see struggling as a bad thing. Some people think that if you're struggling, then you are failing. I don't see it like that. I see struggling as a positive thing, because I know that if I am struggling, it means I am not giving up. If I'm struggling, then I'm still trying. And if I keep trying, then I will succeed.

Thank God I am struggling! Don't get me wrong...I'm not at all happy with myself for binge eating and undermining my hard work with the 30 Day Shred. But I'm glad that I have not completely thrown in the towel. I'm glad that I am fighting and struggling to get back on track! I know that I WILL get back on track. I will never give up on myself. I gave up on myself for so many years before, but that is the old me. The new me loves herself enough to hang in there and to keep putting forth my best effort. Some days, my best effort is not as good as other days. But I will not stop trying.

"No matter how far you have gone down a wrong road, turn back." (Peruvian proverb)





If you are struggling too, then don't you give up and don't beat yourself up about it! Keep struggling, because that means you are still trying. Your struggles will serve to make you stronger, as long as you don't give up. Its not easy to lose weight and be healthy, but you have to keep believing that you are worth the effort! Imagine how proud you will be when you struggle through and succeed!





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CATNCAG 7/16/2014 3:02PM

    I'm proud of u Pix! U sound like me, I struggle, have ups & lots of downs but I WILL NEVER EVER QUIT or GIVE UP! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon I hope u r now out of your slump Pixie!

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NASFKAB 10/14/2013 11:55AM

  lovely

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AMBER461 10/5/2013 7:19PM

  Interested blog, don't give up.

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AURIANNE67 9/11/2013 2:47PM

    Kudos to you for posting about this, not only do you have determination to continue despite your difficulties, you also have the courage and confidence to publicly share your setbacks. It is so easy to try and sweep our mistakes under the rug and pretend we didn't falter, it takes perserverence to continue inspite of them and bravery and a fantastic attitude to celebrate them as part of your journey and something that will make you stronger in the end!
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GRAMPIAN 9/10/2013 6:03AM

  Great attitude! emoticon

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BUSMOM27 9/6/2013 11:24AM

    I love the graph at the end. emoticon

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EFFRAYECHILDE 8/30/2013 3:25PM

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GOOSIEMOON 8/30/2013 8:33AM

    Thanks for your honesty Pixie. I've been struggling with eating for awhile now and it's good to know that we can all struggle together for the greater good.

Keep up the good work and the great blog posts!

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SWAN47 8/25/2013 7:18PM

    Most of us struggle in our weight loss, healthy eating and exercise but like you said thank goodness we don't give up. If it were easy most of us would be thin but most of aren't. For everything that is difficult we learn something about ourselves. Thanks for sharing.

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SUPERSYLPH 8/19/2013 10:27AM

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KIMPARKER3 8/7/2013 4:44PM

    Hang in there you can do it!

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JUSGETTENBY42 8/6/2013 12:22AM

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TOKIEMOON 8/5/2013 6:17PM

    With your strong will and determination, I know you'll be in your very own super hero t-shirt before long. Please keep your blogs coming! emoticon emoticon

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ELINTY 8/5/2013 8:04AM

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SPARKLINGME176 8/4/2013 7:54PM

    The chart says it all! You can do this, we can help! You help me SO much..... please just make up your mind & I will too! Together we will REMEMBER why we joined Spark People!

Love you!
*~LIGHT

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LORI2562 8/4/2013 7:13PM

    I needed this inspiration today! Thanks!!

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QTEALADY20031 8/4/2013 8:50AM

    Pixie, you are so right. Struggling does mean you are still in the game and working towards your goal! No one said this was going to be easy. I gained about 7 lbs in the last two months so now I am back on track and looking at what has caused this weight gain. YOU are such an inspiration to all of us. Keep up the good work Pixie! YOU are doing great! emoticon emoticon June

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CATE195 8/4/2013 6:20AM

    Thanks for sharing, I too see to have lost my way the last few weeks and I am struggling. I love the second graph with how weight loss really is. Have a great day and keep on keeping on. emoticon

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DEEKELLYE 8/3/2013 9:48PM

    The first chart definitely shows what I want my weight loss to be and the second shows what my weight loss is actually. Ups and downs. I struggle when the numbers are up and I lose motivation and I am so happy to see a lower number on the scale. Keep your head up and the struggle will go. There's light at the end of the tunnel.

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CFMOSS 8/3/2013 12:52PM

    I wonder what the chart for emotional ups and downs would like compared to the weight loss. Hugs....as you struggle. Good news is your still here....plodding through the mud in spite of life. So, here's a virtual hand to help you for the next step - paying attention to the next thing that mindlessly and aimlessly seeks to wiggle its way into your mouth.

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ROANNA9 8/3/2013 12:07PM

    Thanks...I needed that today! emoticon

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CINDYCHARLENE 8/3/2013 11:55AM

    You my dear woman are a winner in every ones book. Why? Because there is no guile in you. You say it like it is and rise above the struggle to show everyone that they never have to give up because they have fallen down a little and compared to all the climbing you have done without falling, your little stumble is nothing. Praying for you my dear. Thank you for being our hero here on SP.
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MRSKATEDUVALL 8/2/2013 9:15PM

    loved the grapic of the graph. How perfect.

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CINDYYB 8/2/2013 7:33AM

    You know what, Pixie? so far 254 people have commented on this blog. You should never forget that your honesty and transparency have had a tremendous positive effect on so many dear hearts, most of whom you won't ever get to know.

Your *real* victory is in the very powerful goodness you are spreading. Whenever something good is winning, there will be huge struggles. You may not win the battle but the war is already won. God bless you! You're a winner!

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SFREY217 8/2/2013 7:29AM

    Struggling is always better than giving up.

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KHALIA2 8/2/2013 12:37AM

  EXCELLENT ADVICE! emoticon

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CHARTHESTAR 8/1/2013 9:56PM

    Love the destination quote.
How true it is to stay focus on the end result not all the hills and valleys of the journey!

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JANETTEB553 8/1/2013 7:34PM

    hope things are better now emoticon emoticon

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BARBANNA 8/1/2013 7:06PM

    You still have the residual stress from this year. Your body is conditioned to it and it will stay until you start meditation, prayer or other ways to counter it. Biofeedback using a BP cuff or taking your pulse is a good way to determine if you are still stressed and determine what is working. emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CICELY360 8/1/2013 6:51PM

  Good blog

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7WORSHIPS 8/1/2013 2:28PM

  emoticon Great blog for me because I am currently struggling and can relate. Thanks for sharing!

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CAZLINR 8/1/2013 12:23PM

  I was wondering how it was going for you. Your goal for the month was pretty intensive and I would think awfully hard to stick to in the midst of a regular life. I was worried that if you slipped up you'd blame yourself rather than the size of of the goal you took on.

I do admire your tenacity so much because in the middle of struggling, you are still analyzing what's happening and why and blogging. That takes a person who is on the path to success and that's you!! Pretty impressive. It'll be interesting to hear where you are in a month and whether you have a new goal . emoticon

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BLUEANGELLK 8/1/2013 11:13AM

    emoticon Friends help us through struggles!!!

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JERICHO1991 8/1/2013 9:25AM

    Struggling right along with you.

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GINA197538 8/1/2013 3:29AM

    Thanks for sharing! I love the quote you added about how "you can't OUT exercise a bad diet", so true! That is what I try to do. Exercise more so I can eat the junk I want to, but that really does not work!

Thanks for being honest and open about your struggles!

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RED_DEVIL_APRIL 8/1/2013 12:17AM

    Don't give up. emoticon

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WATERDIAMONDS 7/31/2013 7:15PM

    Thank you for sharing your struggles with us. You inspire every single time you blog.

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REBIRTHDIVA 7/31/2013 5:05PM

    emoticon blog! thank God i'm struggling, too! i was just thinking about this today. i am grateful for the struggle. i have not given up!
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CAROLHARMON 7/31/2013 4:23PM

    I think you are doing great. Loved the blog. I myself have been doing alot of emotional eating while waiting for my heart surgery. I think to much about it and then I worry and eat. I am glad your doing so well with your shed. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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NEWCHICK 7/31/2013 3:59PM

    Awesome blog! Thanks for sharing with us. I am inspired for sure. Now get a drink of water and get back in the ring. This fight is not over! emoticon

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HFAYE81 7/31/2013 2:53PM

    I absolutely love the weight loss graph!!! Why? Because that is EXACTLY what mine looks like! emoticon emoticon

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