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I'm Back, but For How Long?

Monday, July 29, 2013

So, the last time I was here was the first of January. I have not lost any weight. To Be Honest, I think I'm close to 300 lbs. like 280.. I'm going to die if I can't get this weight off. I feel my body and it doesn't feel good on the inside. I can't get up to exercise... I can't get myself to eat right. Am I depressed? Just not motivated? I don't know what it is... I know I could if I could really wrap my mind around it, but maybe I'm scared of losing weight? I don't know.. but I'm here again, saying that I'm going to give it another try.. As of the beginning of next week, I will start. My goal is still 50 lbs by the end of the month. That is 10 lbs per month. I'll have to lose 10 lbs in August, September, October, November, and December to get it off. If I do lose the weight, I told myself that I would get a new car for my birthday. If I can lose this 50 lbs. Losing Weight is such an obstacle for me.. I want to say I know I can do it, but I'm not sure if I can.. And even if I do, can I keep it off? I come on here everytime saying I'm back, I'm ready and committed, determined to get the weight off and then I just fail... Not depressed or anything... just keeping it real.. But going to make the most of this and say Here We Go Again!
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  • MSGO72
    As long as you don't stop, you'll eventually experience a breakthrough!
    1696 days ago
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