I woke up today with an upset stomach, because last night I ate too much. What ?!
Yesterday I went shopping with Karen and, as shopping days usually go, I missed my regular meal times. Whenever I hang out with her we always pick healthy meals, so I didn't feel the need to pack a healthy snack. For lunch I had salmon, coleslaw and lettuce with a lime vinaigrette. Dinner was a medium Atlantic Salmon pack from "My Fit Foods" (salmon, quinoa and broccoli).
Dinner was 100% healthy but I ate too much of it because I felt RAVENOUS. I should have stopped the moment I felt full - half-way through ! The reason I felt so ravenous was that I'd waited way too long to eat, and should have packed healthy snacks to keep myself sane. Last night, I reverted to my former, mindless self and kept going till my plate was empty. I haven't such hunger - or such a mad desire to eat - like that in a very long time.
Coming up against the "hunger monster" scared me big time. It reminded me of how I used to feel when I got that hungry. In that state of mind, I could (1) eat mindlessly (2) eat too much (3) eat anything, and I mean anything.
The reason I hadn't felt that hungry in months is because, as part of my new lifestyle, I have been eating 4 to 6 healthy meals a day. Now I realize that this change has been very good for me because:
1) Eating small meals regularly keeps my stomach satisfied. It keeps me from going to that mindless, trance-like state where I lose control around food.
2) Those small healthy meals make me feel full, curbing the need to overeat. My stomach stopped hurting the way it used to.
3) Eating healthy foods ensures that my body got all the nutrients it needs, so I really enjoy mealtimes now, instead of feeling guilty all the time.
So now I'm re-committing to the conscious decision to do the following:
- Continue eating my 4 - 6 healthy meals a day
- Pack healthy snacks on days I will be out and about
- Never wait too long in between meals again.
Eating well regularly makes me feel better about myself.
It curbs those extreme hunger pangs and the desire to binge.
It calms me down, making it easier to make rational decisions about food.
It's one thing for me to follow the rules of my new lifestyle, but it's very important to know why I am following them and why they work for me. This weekend's adventure has taught me that.