What motivates me
Sunday, July 28, 2013
What motivates me:
A woman at work complimented me recently on my weight loss. She said that I was really looking good and then quickly added that the most important thing is to get healthy. I thanked her but later I started to think that neither of those reasons are what motivates me.
I am not doing this for vanity because I am NOT going to look cute no matter how much I lose. I am not young and then there is the skin (sigh). In some ways this is freeing because I don't have to worry about being perfect because it is not physically possible.
Health is important but it isn't like I had some urgent medical condition that motivated me. In fact, I was a relatively healthy obese person. Despite being over 300 lbs, my blood sugar, cholesterol, etc. were ideal. My blood pressure was borderline but that quickly went back to normal after I lost only 25 lbs. (This sounds a little bit like bragging about something I have no control over -- sorry about that.)
The biggest thing that motivates me is being able to do stuff. There are so many things that I won't even try because of my size. I would like to go kayaking but I know I wouldn't even fit in the kayak. I used to think that I didn't have the upper body strength to paddle but, after working out consistently for 7 months, I feel a lot stronger now.
As I get closer to goal, this is becoming even more important. As I work out, I find other things that I would like to try and now I feel like I am "training" for those things. For example, I would like to try a boxing cardio workout (you get to hit a bag but no one hits you back). I don't feel like I am ready to start yet because I know that the first thing they will gave you do is jump rope. So now I have to practice that. (By the way, I HATE how my stomach flops around when I jump but I guess that I will have to get over it.)
THIS is what is driving me lately. I know that I will continue to lose weight if I keep my calories between 1200-1600, but I continue to workout because there are things that I need to do. For example, I have to workout to a certain DVD so that I can return it to Netflix and get another DVD that I am interested in.
Start weight: 324.4 lbs
Current weight: 235.2
Goal weight: 210 or lower?