Sunday, July 28, 2013
This is more of a pledge than a blog, so I apologize in advance if it reads as a selfish rant, or worse yet, a narcissist's manifesto of sorts.
From this day forward, I simply refuse to allow the shortcomings of others, which cause me great stress, to manifest themselves in to my sick compulsion to binge eat in a vain effort to feel better. It does not work and never has. Without exception, I always wind up feeling worse and the reason is simple.
When others hurt me, whether intentional or otherwise, hurting myself with food only compounds the problem and makes me feel worse about myself. An alternative to such self-destructive "coping" behaviors might be to work harder at making meaningful connections with others, friends or companions, in order to express how I feel without judgement, talk it out, and then maybe, just go for a walk or indulge in any number of healthful coping activities that do not involve eating. Examples are abound: bird watching, walking, lifting weights, playing with my daughter, Sparking, reading, etc.
Eating angry just cannot work for me any more. And frankly, it never worked for me. I am just plain sick of it and will not allow myself to succumb to it anymore.
Thanks for reading.