A renewed sense of self worth on this big blue marble
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Flashback to yesterday morning….
Hubby: Are you ready to go to West Virginia with me to pick up the trailer?
Me: Are you SERIOUS? I told you I didn't know if I wanted to do it!
Hubby: I really need to get that truck and trailer because I need to take it to some coal mines next week to train some miners.
Me: OMG…whatever. I don't know why you couldn't make other *effing arrangements!
Hubby: Sorry, I thought it would be a nice road trip for us.
I was cranky…hadn't even finished my first cup of coffee and he was hovering. I did my daily SparkCoach, wrote a blog and hopped in the shower. Well, there was NO WAY I was going to enjoy this. The whole drive down I was in a bad mood….I had a whole different day planned and this totally was ruining it! Almost 5 hours, and two construction traffic jam nightmares later, we reached our destination. My husband picked the truck and trailer and I got in the drivers seat of my car to begin the drive back.
Of course, first I complained first for a couple of minutes about how hungry I was and the need to make sure we stopped for some late lunch or early dinner. It was not time wasted….
Back on the road, we come up on a really bad accident that had just happened. I'm an Emergency/Trauma nurse, I stopped. By the grace of God I did things that needed to be done with the materials that were available to me. I don't want to get into those details because this is not a "tooting my own horn" post, rather a blog of discovery. After all was said and done and I left the scene, something occurred to me. I was supposed to be there, I was meant to take this road trip with my husband.
I have been so down on myself for so long about my lack of ability to lose weight. I believe that this weight loss journey has totally consumed me for such a long time, it had become my only identity. I had forgotten that I am NOT a failure at life! I am MORE than an overweight dieting failure...I AM worthy of respecting and loving myself.
Here's to clarity!