40,000-49,999 SparkPoints 45,463

A renewed sense of self worth on this big blue marble

Saturday, July 27, 2013

Flashback to yesterday morning….

Hubby: Are you ready to go to West Virginia with me to pick up the trailer?
Me: Are you SERIOUS? I told you I didn't know if I wanted to do it!
Hubby: I really need to get that truck and trailer because I need to take it to some coal mines next week to train some miners.
Me: OMG…whatever. I don't know why you couldn't make other *effing arrangements!
Hubby: Sorry, I thought it would be a nice road trip for us.

I was cranky…hadn't even finished my first cup of coffee and he was hovering. I did my daily SparkCoach, wrote a blog and hopped in the shower. Well, there was NO WAY I was going to enjoy this. The whole drive down I was in a bad mood….I had a whole different day planned and this totally was ruining it! Almost 5 hours, and two construction traffic jam nightmares later, we reached our destination. My husband picked the truck and trailer and I got in the drivers seat of my car to begin the drive back.

Of course, first I complained first for a couple of minutes about how hungry I was and the need to make sure we stopped for some late lunch or early dinner. It was not time wasted….

Back on the road, we come up on a really bad accident that had just happened. I'm an Emergency/Trauma nurse, I stopped. By the grace of God I did things that needed to be done with the materials that were available to me. I don't want to get into those details because this is not a "tooting my own horn" post, rather a blog of discovery. After all was said and done and I left the scene, something occurred to me. I was supposed to be there, I was meant to take this road trip with my husband.

I have been so down on myself for so long about my lack of ability to lose weight. I believe that this weight loss journey has totally consumed me for such a long time, it had become my only identity. I had forgotten that I am NOT a failure at life! I am MORE than an overweight dieting failure...I AM worthy of respecting and loving myself.

Here's to clarity! emoticon
Share This Post With Others
Member Comments About This Blog Post
    God works in mysterious ways! It's so much fun when we catch Him doing it! emoticon
    1695 days ago
    We often forget our strengths and true selves when we focus on trying to solve all of our or the world's problems. I am glad that you we able to see the lesson in this situation. Now you can keep this trip as a reminder of why you have chosen to travel the road to a healthier life.
    1695 days ago
    What a great story! Thanks for sharing. I'm so glad that you were where you were supposed to be. emoticon
    1696 days ago
    To clarity!
    1696 days ago
  • Add Your Comment to the Blog Post

    Log in to post a comment

    Disclaimer: Weight loss results will vary from person to person. No individual result should be seen as a typical result of following the SparkPeople program.