My arm hurts, so I want to just give up!
Saturday, July 27, 2013
I know that's a completely silly way to think, but I just can't help hearing that voice in my head. I had a surgery 5 years ago on a nerve in my arm and everything healed just fine after that. It acts up every once in a while, but for the most part just goes back to normal after a few weeks. Not this time... EMG last week and MRI coming up this week... It's unbelievable how a simple injury can throw off everything... I've been down in the dumps for the past few days just thinking about all the "what ifs"... and that is sooooo not me! What if it doesn't get better.. what if I completely freak out in the MRI machine... what if they say I need surgery again... what if I need to be out of work for 6 or 8 weeks again... what if it never goes away... wah wah wah... I can hear my inner 5-year old whining like crazy!
But I can't give up - I just can't!!! Heck, I wore a bikini at the July 4th party this year!!! A BIKINI!!! I'm just not going to give in to the negative thoughts... and that's it. It really is much more simple than I think... So, I am going to make myself busy right now doing anything but eating... and I'll just keep myself busy until it passes.. I will run on the treadmill tonight and tomorrow... I will cook a healthy dinner with my husband tonight... I will get out that swiss ball and actually use it! I will try my best to keep positive...