Friday, July 26, 2013
In my last blog entry I talked about how this week would be a huge test because my son is out of town and I will be at home alone all day off my feet due to a foot injury. It was a huge test because my past experience has been boredom binge behavior, and especially when I'm alone.
Wednesday when he left I was immediately sad and tried to talk myself into raiding the fridge. I talked myself right back out of it and just got busy knitting. Thursday I was going to watch TV, but couldn't find a single thing I wanted to watch. The leftover mac-n-cheese from my husbands supper the night before was taunting me. Finally I got up to get it and put it in the microwave and then in my mouth, but was able to stop myself by repeating my mantra, "You Are Stronger Than The Binge". I ended up throwing it in the back of the bottom shelf of the fridge where I couldn't see it. I grabbed a stick of gum instead and went back to knitting. Today seemed easier somehow. I did try to watch TV today but the rain kept knocking out the satellite, so I spent most of my time reading and knitting.
In the end, I believe this test has resulted in a positive testimony for me. Was it easy for me to stay on track with my calories and not give in to the binge? Well, no, not easy, but definitely doable. I can't explain how I was able to do it this time when I have legitimately tried in the past and failed. I'm not going to get cocky and say I will never again be tempted to binge. I am just going to be extremely thankful that I was able to handle myself in a way that I am proud of, and just keep going.
Tomorrow is its own kind of test, as we'll be going on a road trip to visit my father in law in the nursing home, and we'll be eating fast food for lunch. I spent some time online today at the restaurant website and mapped out my lunch. I even went ahead and put it into the tracker for tomorrow. All I need to do now is enjoy my day until time to eat, then order what I have already tracked, and have fun eating it!
I want to thank everyone who has taken the time to comment on my last entry with such positive and motivating advice and encouragement. That is a big part of why I was successful, because I had already told myself that I would write about this week whether it was good or bad, successful or a complete wash-out. I'm just glad I can give the good news that
I AM STRONGER THAN THE BINGE!