Friday, July 26, 2013
Ok, first, I weighed myself yesterday and it is the most I have weighed....ever. By 0.4 lbs. So much for cutting out doughnuts for breakfast and soda. I have gained 4 lbs since then.
BUT, I am feeling really, really, really positive right now (and even the day BEFORE I have to work all stinkin' weekend). I started to write a blog yesterday, but it was whiny and negative and I just deleted it before I hit save. But, it was nice to get those thoughts out of my head.
Why am I positive? I'm starting (again) to change my spending/saving habits to help me get closer to debt-free. A lot of this is a result of my 2007 divorce and ex-husband's spending habits. But not all of it. I paid off $20K after the divorce, only to add a car payment back in 2010. And then.......I lost about $20K of income or so a year, not having expected it. So, instead of changing my habits again I continued on doing what I've been doing and not really paying much of anything off for 2 years. So a few months ago I restarted my weekly saving account online (so I can't touch it very easily) after a year without it (missing work for whooping cough and general bad attitude towards money wiped it out last year).
The problem is a pattern I have seen most of my adult life: Do good with money but ignore health and weight loss, March full steam ahead with weight loss and let the spending habits climb, or (as has been since October of last year) ignore both weight loss AND spending habits. I repeat this over and over and over for years now. I'm not sure why the willpower thing gives out. Oh and most of my current spending is either eating out or the casino (which is another topic; not even addiction, but hating to be home alone. That's when I run to the casino).
So, I am determined to quit spending so much spare money (and time) at both the casino and eating out. If I lose weight, I don't have to buy so many clothes because I have closets full of clothes just waiting for me to fit in them. This will solve the money issues immediately. Don't get me wrong, I can pay all my bills on time, but it's what I'm doing with my extra money every week that's getting me down.
AND I am determined to eat more at home and healthier, too (and cheaper). AND I'm going to try to do this at the same time! YES! Same time! This hasn't happened before.
I even had a lengthy, tearful discussion with my husband. He tends to enable me sometimes. Although I'm thankful he doesn't have cross or harsh words for me, sometimes a "why are you doing this?" would be helpful. But, if I have to face my demons that means he has to face his- which is beer and eating too much also.
We both agreed that August 1 is the starting point, but we have been cooking (unhealthy) things at home this week. Cooking at home is still an improvement from eating out, even if cream cheese peach bars and sour cream chicken enchiladas were involved.
So the soda update, which I am infinitely proud of:
Since May 11:
I have had the planned soda on July 3 (at a theme park with free soda on a hot day. Still drank a ton of water, too).
I had 2 small Sprites last night. Don't feel guilty about it because I was at a party and feeling really nauseated. They helped.
I have had around 5-6 pink lemonade slushies this summer. I KNOW this is as bad as soda.
Also, had one Pepsi at a Mexican restaurant that has nasty iced tea. I don't like water with spicy or garlicky foods. The Pepsi tasted gross, so I only drank half.
I don't think I've had any sweet tea, except for 3 times when I was accidentally served it. Only one time was I able to send it back, the other times I had fast food and took it home.
Alcohol consumption has only been 4-5 drinks this entire summer.
I completely eliminated the coffee at work. It was disgusting, needed sugar to even drink it. And I don't like sugar or cream in my coffee. So, there is 0.65 cents saved every day.
I'm drinking mostly plain water. Probably averaging 40-50 oz a day.
Looking back on this list for 2+ months. THIS is how I want to live my life. An occasional soda, but drink water or unsweetened tea 95% of the time. I don't want to sweat it if I have one or two a month, but I don't ever want it to be a habit again. And to be honest, I can only think of 3 or 4 times since then that I have actually really, really, really wanted a soda since I quit drinking it. Yay me!