Friday, July 26, 2013
Well! Even though the date of this blog says Friday, I'm still considering it Thursday night, because I just got off work and what not. Haha thought the blog would make more sense if I put that out there.
Wednesday night was a real low point for me. I had done really well with food during the day and only had eaten about 1300 when I got home from work. But then I binged. I ate 325 calories of lasagna Hamburger Helper, plus 300 calories of brown rice, plus God knows how many hundreds of calories in cheese dip and crackers. Ugh. I just don't know why I can't control myself when I get home at night! It doesn't matter if I have food at home or not, I always ending up over-eating! It's frustrating to the point where I went to bed that night so deep in guilt that I was ready to cry. At this point I know I'm back in the 190s.
I'm so frustrated I want to punch myself. : \
Today, I think, was better. I came home after work having kept it at 844 vegetable-crammed calories. And I have to admit, I've fallen off the edge tonight. I estimate today's calories are between 1650 and 1800 calories. At the very least I didn't eat past my maintenance range. It's bitter to think that keeping it at the max maintenance is progress right now, but I guess I've got to take (extremely small) baby steps.
And so begins the very long, difficult trek upward. *Sigh* Somehow I've got to remember not to let the sense of defeat and failure get the best of me.
I have high hopes for tomorrow. It's a day off - finally! - after an especially exasperating week. One my primary objectives is to concoct a food game plan that includes making a grocery list, meal plans, and finding some way to prevent over-eating after work. Plus trying to find a way to burn calories would probably help, too. :\ Right now the main game plan is vegetables, vegetables, vegetables (hard to over eat when once serving of sliced zucchini is five calories) and protein/fiber to keep me full longer.
I'll just have to see, I suppose.
Haha. I don't remember this being so difficult the first time around. :
Well. I hope all of you are having more success than me, and are looking forward to the start of a fabulous weekend. Happy Friday to all of you out there!