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2009 where did you go??

Thursday, July 25, 2013

I am in need of a breakthrough. I lost over 40 pounds in 2009 with spark people and was like amazed... I felt so good, was on top of the world - then struggles and problems in my relationship brought me back over the years to end up heavier than I was then...

What was the good in all the work and effort? Why did I ever let it all go sour agian? So many questions, and so frustrated with self for allowing emotions to take over. Feeing of my self worth flew out the window, I was nothing more than a failure; as I had always been all my life when it comes to weight loss.

But ... weight (smirk on face for the pun), I had done it before, I can do it again. I know I can, I think I can, I hope I can... why am I doubting myself? Why am I lingering in the door; weighting (another smirk) for some one or something to magically inspire me? There is nothing that He can not do. Praying and meditation is my start.

I may only 'think I can' but I KNOW He can!!!

What is holding me back today? Help me fan the flame I feel and get up and moving again. I am pleading for help; who will reach out?
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  • LLP215
    As a fellow emotional eater I can really relate to your blog but don't lose faith Tami. You know and gotta believe you are ALWAYS worth the effort. Besides weight loss maybe try for a few weeks making conditioning or strength your priority and alternate back and forth in phases according to how you feel. On the emotional side, my father used to say long ago "control what you can, the rest let it go" (my dad always was direct, lol). I've tried adopting that in my everyday life since then and it has come to mean many things for me depending on the situation but for the most part it has never let me down. Hang in there though....I wish you the absolute best!

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    1660 days ago
    Don't doubt yourself! Of course you can do it again...and you will do it better this time because you have all the knowledge you gained from the first time you did it!
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