2009 where did you go??
Thursday, July 25, 2013
I am in need of a breakthrough. I lost over 40 pounds in 2009 with spark people and was like amazed... I felt so good, was on top of the world - then struggles and problems in my relationship brought me back over the years to end up heavier than I was then...
What was the good in all the work and effort? Why did I ever let it all go sour agian? So many questions, and so frustrated with self for allowing emotions to take over. Feeing of my self worth flew out the window, I was nothing more than a failure; as I had always been all my life when it comes to weight loss.
But ... weight (smirk on face for the pun), I had done it before, I can do it again. I know I can, I think I can, I hope I can... why am I doubting myself? Why am I lingering in the door; weighting (another smirk) for some one or something to magically inspire me? There is nothing that He can not do. Praying and meditation is my start.
I may only 'think I can' but I KNOW He can!!!
What is holding me back today? Help me fan the flame I feel and get up and moving again. I am pleading for help; who will reach out?