I must confess that number seven is that unresolved stress leads to overeating! I know this in my head, but getting that puppy down into my heart, well, that is proving to be a little more challenging. I think I shared in a blog or somewhere on my page, forgive me, lol, the last three weeks are a blur. We’ll call it a food coma. I remember them before December 2012, and on account of all the overeating, the food “fog” came back with a vengeance. Ah, somebody knows what I’m talking about, lol. Anyway, I realized something about myself. I am not nearly as strong as I thought I was in “uncontrollable” situations. Huh, who would’ve known, but oh the lesson. It’s been a stinger.
I have been very successful losing weight because my environment is very controlled. I am a stay at home with minimal stress. In fact any stress I endure is stress I put on myself, say for like a cleaning project or to host a party or something. I had no idea that going on a vacation would throw me off so terribly. I was so sad most of the trip because no matter how hard I tried I could not seem to get a grip. Every luscious food known to mankind was presented and I was tired and very stressed out on account of several reasons. All of these variables together spelled disaster. At the beginning of the fifth day I weighed myself, I went up over seven pounds! Now I realize it is humanly impossible to gain seven actual pounds in five days, but still seeing that number was staggering. I felt terrible. I determined to try to get it together for the rest of the trip, but was not able to fully regain control until I got back.
But ah ha, I did, I did, I DID regain control and have been averaging around 2100 calories ever since. Now granted that is only five days, but what a victory for me. NEVER in my life have I had such a large failure over the course of so many days and got back on track. NEVER. As a matter of fact, in the past, if I got off of track one meal I was throwing in the towel. I couldn’t believe the change! In fact, I am STILL wiping my eyes in disbelief because something marvelous has changed in me on the inside. I no longer desire to overeat. I just can scarcely believe it guys. God has done a work in me that appears to be permanent! Now I don’t want to jump the gun to far, I am still a ways from goal, but how many of you have tried to lose weight, failed, and then considered yourself a failure, so you gave up for a season? Like a month, five months, years? This was ALWAYS my pattern, but not this time!
Can I level with you guys? I am not 100 percent sure what is so different this time around. I know I have shared in the past that I have lost and maintained a 100 pound loss before, only to regain all of that weight, plus I had other weight losses in excess of 40 pounds and regained it, but gals something is really different this time. It is different on the inside. Now admittingly, the vacation was a bomb, there is no doubt about that,lol, but the old Rachel would have been too embarrassed to try again. I would have folded and God only knows when I would have gotten back up on the horse, but this time I am pressing on. This time I will not allow a bad week to mess up my whole life. Gals, this stuff is way too important. Learning how to control ourselves around food is so important. The feelings and the benefits from being a healthy weight far outweigh the discomfort of a stomach growl or a missed meal. Every day, more and more, I am becoming convinced that healthy eating is the only kind of eating for me. I still have so much to learn, I still have so much of me to conquer, lol, but I had to share that there is victory, sweet victory after defeat. Tomorrow I weigh in. I think I’ll be ok. At the very least I will be able to see what the “actual” damage is, minus the puffiness and water weight from eating so much salt.
I want to encourage you. Please know that if you have tried to lose weight before, or even if this is your very first attempt, chances are at some point, you are going to fail, and you may even fail big like me. I have been very consistent with my plan for over seven months before bombing. That is a great stride for me, but what if it’s been only two weeks and you find yourself struggling. Please do me a favor, don’t you dare quit! If you will just keep putting one foot in front of the other, you will get to where you want to be! I learned so much through this experience, and you better believe the next time I go on vacation, I will have an even better plan, and more skills to handle the stress. I might even write alternative things down on an index card to remind me, and try to keep all of my record keeping very simple.
There is a way to win at this! Let’s walk together hand in hand so that we may reach our goals because it is no fun to win alone, and I know that I know that we have what it takes to finish. Difficulties will come, stress will rear its ugly head, but if we keep on keeping on, and we have each other, we can do this! I just know it, so forgetting those things that lie behind me, I press on with you towards that heavenly calling, the prize found in Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith! Woo Hoo! We got this!
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