Baby-Mama Drama & The Giant Peach
Thursday, July 25, 2013
Hello, my name is Karly and I'm a Stepmom. It's been 1 month since my last relapse of emotional eating.... If you've ever been exposed to the 12-Step recovery process, either in real-life or TV/movies, you may know that a meeting starts with a similar introduction.
So here I am, polishing off a giant peach from Costco. It's delicious, juicy, sweet, and perfect in all other ways....but it's not cheesecake. Okay, of COURSE it's not cheesecake! And you're wondering how we got from 12-step to a peach to cheesecake, right?
It all started with my husband and his ex exchanging their kids today. That situation is another story for a group of qualified mental health professionals, but let's just say there was baby-mama drama. Drama led to doubt, doubt led to certain fears, fears led to a desire for comfort and the minute I reached out to faithful friends who will be there for me and pray for me, the intense craving for cheesecake welled up in me! I'm telling you I could SEE it and TASTE it!! But God bless my friend, she intervened and suggested a piece of fruit to combat that sugar craving. And in my committment to myself and my health, I went for it instead of heading for temptation. And as you can see...I'm using other tools to help with the emotional eating, like blogging about it.
I'm not saying I won't ever eat cheesecake in my life again; that would surely be one big, fat lie. And you had better believe it still sounds yummy. However, I'm learning to recognize when a craving is triggered by circumstances and emotions. I can also attest that I feel SO EMPOWERED that I was able to stave it off and that I feel satisfied with my healthier decision! I'm not burdened with guilt or depression. And I didn't allow the ex's junk to get me to the point where I mindlessly "self-medicate" with food. That is victory that is certainly sweet!