July is winding down, and soon I will be finished with the Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred workout! I am super proud of myself for sticking with it this month, and I owe a HUGE thank you to my Sparkfriend, Luvtobowl, for being such a great workout buddy and accountability partner! Even though we live about 700 miles apart, Tammy and I have been doing the Shred together, and checking in with each other every day to give support and encouragement. Its great to have a Spark friend doing the same workout with me. Knowing that I have committed to check in with her every day to update her on how I'm doing has really kept me motivated. Thanks for the support, Tammy!
I can honestly say that I've enjoyed doing the 30 Day Shred! Oh yeah, its difficult and challenging, but thats what makes it great! I feel like such a champion when I finish that workout every day. That sense of accomplishment and pride is so addictive!
A few people have asked me if I've lost weight this month, and my answer to that is "I don't know, and to be honest I don't care." My goal has never really been about weight loss. My goal is to be as healthy as I can possibly be. For me, weight loss has always been just a side effect of that. Yes, I would like to eventually get down to a size 8 or 10. But you know what? Even if it takes me years to get there, I am still a hero to myself. I have lost 71 lbs since March of last year, and I'm proud of that. But I'm even more proud of how I have changed my life in other ways. I have made a pledge to myself to eat as healthy as possible. I have found a love of exercise and because of that I have gotten stronger and fitter. My body is still overweight, but it is slowly toning up.
Most importantly, I have changed my mind about myself. I used to be my own worst enemy, slowly killing myself with too much food and too much time just sitting around. My self esteem was lower than low. I didn't believe in myself. I thought I was destined to be obese and unhealthy until the day I died. I never believed that I could be strong enough to rescue myself. For years, I have told my Sparkfriends "You are worth your best effort"...but I didn't believe it about myself!
That is no longer true, though. I DO believe in myself, and I KNOW that I really am worth my best effort. I also know that some days will be better than others, but as long as I keep pushing and just doing the best that I can do each day, I am making progress. My weight doesn't matter to me. My health does, though. So I will keep working hard to be as healthy as I can be, and the bonus to that will be that I will lose weight. Not as fast as you might expect, but I'm fine with that.
"It is so easy to get our minds out of whack.
We fixate on where we want to BE so much, that we often totally forget where we CAME FROM and never really allow ourselves to celebrate where we ARE."
I know where I want to be, but I am not fixated on it. I am taking it one day at a time. I know how far I've come since last year, and I wake up every morning with gratitude because I have become so strong that I know I can keep going. I feel like every day is a celebration!
My Sparkfriend Tammy and I have already got our August workout planned, even though we still have a few more days of the Shred. In August, we'll be doing a workout called "Weight Loss Cardio Kick", with an instructor named Violet Zaki. She's more laid back in her approach than Jillian Michaels is, but its still going to be a great workout and I'm looking forward to it. Here's a sample clip of the workout, if you're interested;
I'm going to keep working hard in August because I know I am worth the best effort that I can put forth. You are worth your best effort too!