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My decision to go back on Prozac.

Thursday, July 25, 2013

I've battled ( I hate this term because it implies you win more than you lose which isn't always the case) depression since I was 13. That's when I was first diagnosed with clinical depression and received treatment for it. I've been off and on Prozac at different doses for a really long time.But I had been off it for 3 or 4 years and doing quite well. Even through losing my father.

Lately though I've hit a new low. My Dr. and I have always used a scale of 1-10 and he always asks me, where are you today? 1 is suicidal with a plan, 10 is life is great. Lately I've been at a constant 3. I cry all the time for long periods of time and I'm just not coping. I'd like to say I'm keeping my head above water, but the truth is I'm drowning. Drowning in failure and disappointment. In sadness and grief. In despair and hopelessness.

So I went to my Dr. and told him, I'm at a 3 all the time. He put me back on at a healthy dose that I can handle and I do feel somewhat better already. But I'm also super tired. Like....SUPER tired. Groggy even. And I just can't concentrate. I know it'll get better as it starts to work so I just have to push through

I'm working on a couple of things to deal with the things causing what I'm feeling but it's going to be a while.
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  • STRINGI719
    I am so sorry for what you are going through. It runs on both sides of my family to different degrees. Many need to be on an antidepressant. I only suffered mildly for years when I was on birth control pills, and eating the standard American diet. Going off BC pills helped tremendously with the frequency and severity of my depressive episodes, and now that I eat a clean diet of whole, unprocessed foods, I almost never suffer. On the rare occasions that it pops up, it's just a prevailing sadness that lasts a day or two, but that I am totally able to remain detached from and able to see it for what it is. I have been incredibly blessed by my improvements, and I pray for the same for you. Keep on fighting the good fight and never give up trying new things and making healthy changes in your life!
    1634 days ago
    Depression runs in my family. Those who didn't get help self medicated. You did the right thing! You are in my thoughts and prayers. emoticon emoticon
    1639 days ago
  • MELIS_24
    I'm so sorry. I've had to deal with depression my whole life so I understand what your going through. I'm glad you found something that works for you; I've tried different anti-depressives a long time ago but nothing worked/changed.

    Hang in there and try to stay far, far, far away from sugar (not talking about fruit). Bad sugar always makes my depression worse.

    1640 days ago
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