Today I did two spark videos by memory... I almost have them down pat - but I used my X-factor for my strength training instead of just my bands.
I also worked in the yard for a bit.
I got on the scale this morning with dread! But I have maintained my loss..
I am so inspired! Clothes I have not been able to get into for almost 5 years - fit me! Not perfectly yet, but I can get them on and just a few things are tight, my 3/4 sleeves on one shirt have a cute detailed string that is not adjustable, but dangles - just a bit tight, but the shirt fits in other areas - still I put it back in the closet for another few weeks... my one shirt buttons, but there is a tiny gap between two bottons, no thank you - I do not wish to give a peep show, again the rest fits pretty well, again will try on again in a few weeks, but I washed up a few tops that are brand new maybe wore two or three times - they fit me great and I am taking them on vacation!
I am just plain tired! Running to take care of things for dad, wrapping my brothers leg everyday - I need my vacation! I hope that does not come across wrong, I love helping family, but I need a break!
I am feeling a bit upset with my mom and siblings for not doing MORE for my dad or going to visit him. I am dealing with my feelings and my let downs of family... I can only take care of me and what I can do!!
I try to keep my focus on that! Mom and I are still not really talking - she is still very mad at me. As a PSYCHE major - not only do I have to deal with ME and MY issues, but I have to work through issues with other people - and know my limitations. My mother is TOXIC and I have to have a balance in my life. So I create my balance.
I do not care what I do in this life for my parents - my mother is NEVER pleased - she is always mad at me and blames me for whatever is going wrong in her world. Mind you - my sister moved them out by me for a reason - blah blah blah so many blogs ago... long story short, I was willing and able to help my parents.. no matter where they moved to I did the drive - I did whatever I could to help. There are days my dad says to me - your mother hates me - there are many days I say my mother hates me! I just think it is old age and depression. Half way through my degree - I keep my balance.
Taking care of others takes it toll - I am looking forward to vacation in August - one day I am sitting on the beach and being a BUM!
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God is good!
God Bless you!