Sh*t people do to women.
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
On two different forums yesterday and today I have seen two different person accounts of twits at the gym treating other people badly:
Found this yesterday:
"I woke up feeling confident, curvy and sexy. I went to the gym as I often do. I am 43 and overweight by society and medical standards. I have also lost over 100 pounds, but strangers would never know that. I was standing in a hallway type area, looking at a class schedule hanging on the door to one of the classrooms. A very young, tiny, fit and toned looking gal comes up to me and asks me if I need help. I don't think she worked there. I said I was trying to see if any of the BodyPump classes were offered at night. She kinda laughed at me and said I should wait to try that after about 50 pounds are gone. And that maybe I would like AquaFit classes instead. I just smiled and laughed, looked her straight in the eye and said in a very squeaky and condescending tone ... "oh sweety, and maybe you need to eat more food so you're not so lightheaded and ignorant regarding things you know nothing about!" ... and just went on my way. The look on her face was priceless. I hope I see her in one of those BodyPump classes, maybe I can sit on her and squash her, lol. But seriously, what would YOU have done? I keep thinking maybe I could have handled it better or something."
And this today:
"Today is the first time I have been made to feel uncomfortable lifting in the weightroom.
I was doing deadlifts and this couple of dudes kept staring at me and laughing. I tried not to let it bother me but it did and I got flustered and ended up knocking the risers over with the end of the barbell which just made it worse.
I really wanted to finish stage one on a high as I have really enjoyed it and this pretty much just pee'd all over my parade."
Sh*t like this pisses me the F*CK off. In our world, if you are a woman, you are less. And if you have any meat on you, you are even less than that.
How are we supposed to "LOVE OURSELVES" and all that crap when we are constantly told that we aren't good enough? How can we feel we deserve to be happy, when everything tells us we are wrong?
F*ck that sh*t.
I'm done with trying to "love myself" in order to make up some sort of deficit. No, what I would like to see is for us to take back the respect that should be given us. I don't deserve to be thin. I deserve to be valued as a human being regardless of my stupid f*cking weight. What an idiotic thing to judge a person by anyway.
In other news, I decided to follow the meal plan from the Drop 2 Sizes book, but I have modified it in several ways. First, if I'm hungry, I'm going to eat. Second, I am using whole milk when it's called for. Third, I switch out meals for equitable calorie and protein, and I sub out veggies I don't like. Fourth, NO F*CKING STEAMED BROCCOLI. Blech. And I'm much more lax - I'm not committed, I'm trying to figure out how the heck to eat to support a weight lifting program while also reducing calories enough to lose some fat. We'll see what happens. I have to give it a month or so to note any differences. If I can make it that long.
I've noticed that I like a bigger lunch and a smaller dinner. The other day I made tofu stir fry, which includes 3/4 c brown rice, 5oz tofu, and 2 cups of stir fried veggies. At dinner, I could only eat about half of it - and I struggled. But the next day for lunch, I ate the same portion no problem. So, the menu plan has bigger dinners (even though it says that it prioritizes breakfast - haha, nope), and I'm having smaller dinners but having bigger lunches. I had 5oz of tuna at lunch today, but 3 oz of pork at dinner. That works better for me.
I'm following the meal plans because they give me some ideas about food to eat, and how to distribute my foods.
The fresh produce is here! We have been eating peaches, plums, cucumbers, zucchini, potatoes and now corn - we get it from an organic farm nearby. The prices can't be beat - I bought 10 homegrown peaches from the farmer's house for $3.50 today. It's been pretty easy to get my 5-a-day. Although lately it's been more.
My other news is that my touch screen went on my phone. I took it in to get fixed, but my insurance didn't cover it because it's an ordered part, so it would be $50. Well, the NEW phone I was interested in was $99 - the HTC One. My neighbor works at the Sprint store, and he showed me another phone I liked. Unfortunately, the Sprint store is horribly overpriced, and although he sold me on another phone, he isn't going to get the commission. To give you a frame of reference on how Sprint marks up their phones - the One there is $200 if you're up for renewal, but it's $99 on Amazon.
I'm getting the Samsung Galaxy Note 2, which is a phablet - a phone tablet. I hardly ever use my phone to talk, but I do use it to check facebook, read articles, and stuff like that.
So today I ordered the new phone (from Amazon - and I'm saving about $120 from buying it at Sprint), and spent hours looking at cases. I got a flip case that is like a wallet, and I'm also going to get a heavy duty case since I'm not going to get their full insurance protection plan. It is so expensive, it's better just to buy a phone used if something happens before my phone is up for renewal.
I'm excited to Spark from my new Phabulous Phablet!!!