SparkPeople is an amazing website and, the longer you're here, the more you learn. But I easily recall my life before SP. I have to admit that for years I was "OK" being a bit heavy. My weight just kept creeping up on me and my friends and family all acknowledged "its just the way it is as you get older. And I do NOT want to be the person who is so focused on food that I can't enjoy a meal with friends" blah blah blah. 5 pounds added to the 3 pounds over the holiday, then the 4 pounds vacation weight.
That's the way I felt. I would have told you "I just don't seem to be able to really lose weight."
That complete surrender is in the past. I've learned what needs to happen to lose weight, I've lost some, then I let things slide and gained a few, then got serious again. It has been a TOTAL journey, it will never be done. And as we know by now, this has to be a forever change or welcome back the Pillsbury Doughboy look.
So I wanted to share with you a big win today. My DH came back from a long bike ride the other day carrying a white paper bag that was already showing a little oil on it filled with a dozen cookies - 6 large chocolate chip cookies (oh no, my nemesis) and 6 large oatmeal raisins. Those cookies have been in the house for 3 days so far and today after lunch I saw that bag and there were 2 chocolate chips that he hadn't eaten. I decided that I would eat one. I'm in pretty good shape today as far as calories and nutritional balance go and I exercised earlier...these are the thoughts that went through my head...I consumed the cookie and it was delicious and tasty.
But. It was not satisfying.
There was one more lovely cookie in the bag. I realized "you can't get into a lot of trouble here...there's only one more cookie. " Oh it smelled good, the 1st cookie was soft and crumbly, that little bit of chocolate, eat it and enjoy!
Instead, I sat down and tracked my lunch foods including that first cookie. I came in right where I wanted to be. The other cookie would have pushed me over my calorie limit for the day. The time that it took for me to sit down, track what I had consumed and then start this blog entry? Well, I am no longer dying for that cookie. I AM satisfied.
It was a close call. As I said, I know what I need to do to lose weight but lately I just haven't been doing it. This little single choice using the tools and skills SP has shared with me (and the encouragement from all my SP friends) make the difference. Today it was the difference between ending my day where I wanted or being disappointed. Thanks SP!