I updated my ticker. I had been seeing my weight loss ticker so close to being finished, I think I lost the desire to finish. Close enough, right?
With the ticker reflecting my true starting weight, I looked like I was 3/4 of the way done for the last 9 months. Good enough, right?
Now it reflects the last part of my journey, starting with the last 1/4 of the original ticker. It makes me think I have so much farther to go with my little moving guy so close to the start of my line instead of hovering so close to the end.
In resetting my ticker, I also have to reset my mind. It's no longer good enough. I have to finish, I have a few people that have specifically asked me for the before and after shot that's clipped together in some form of finality with the original clothes. Instead of 50 pounds gone, it will be an 80 pound loss in the end. I should be able to wrap myself in those clothes instead of having to wear them to prove the difference.
I need to track all my food for the next few months to make sure I'm going to lose that last bit of weight. I can easily maintain without tracking (within 5 pounds), but losing anything without tracking, no way!
Diligence! That's what will keep me going! I have to be back to every little bite or it just won't happen. I have to treat this like I never lost anything and I'm starting from this point to begin with. 28 pounds is no different than 80 pounds when it comes to losing the weight. I still have to track, I still have to stay within my ranges and I still have to exercise. It's just a smaller range with less room for error.
Fortunately I am much picker than I was about my food when I was above 200. I have gone crazy with where my sources are and as soon as I can afford it, I will be buying direct from a farmer. Fortunately there are a ton of farmers near me! That's a benefit of living in small family farm country. I can easily find what I need at www3.mda.state.mn.us/mng
, from organic to honey to fresh eggs and grass fed meat.
I don't like the sweets as much as I did, I'd rather have whichever fruit is in season for my treats. I still have my morning "treat" of berries and vanilla yogurt every morning.
I will be getting a job as soon as the kids go back to school. I'll find something second shift so we don't have to ever worry about daycare for them. Having actual dollars in my account will help out in the long run. No one can rely on government assistance for long. Not being able to just run to the fridge will help, but I wonder how the sleep differential will throw me off since I figure I won't be in bed until 1 am or later while still having to be up at 7:30 am to get the kids to the bus. Plus I still plan on volunteering at the school one day a week, so no extra sleep that day!
So plenty will be changing in my life in the next few months. I'll be skinnier, employed and healthy.
On to the end!
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