My friends vs My struggle
Tuesday, July 23, 2013
I have pretty much been the overweight friend for about as long as I can remember. I have never been more than the fat one of the group. At some point, I started making friends with other people who were big like me so that I could talk to someone about how I feel. About how I want to lose weight and about how I wish I could change my body. This might sound weird, but my slimmer friends don't understand my struggle. When I feel proud of myself for getting 5 miles in an hour on the elliptical, they're wondering why I feel like I accomplished something. When I talk about how hard it is for me to lose weight, they're not understanding that it's so hard to change everything that I've been doing for the last 10 years. I wish I didn't have to feel like I can't talk to all of my friends about everything. I really just want to be able to talk to all of them about everything and not feel like the this is all they're good for, or that I'm wasting my breath talking because they don't know what its like to the fat girl.