Tuesday, July 23, 2013
I have always said that I am my worse enemy when it comes to believing in my self. I start out good and I have the motivation. then self dough sets in and it all goes down hill but then I stop and I think why not you can do this..
Saturday I am riding a charity bike event . which is 30 and 50 miles I would like to do the 50 mile ride. now this is not a race and was not advertised as a race but I have been in enough rides to know that these are no "Sunday stroll rides" lots of people who participate in tri's and ironmans events use these events as 'qualifying"
I did find out that there is a prize for the top 3 finishers in the age category so that makes me know all the more that this is a "race" so that kind of perked me up.. I did the math and I figured it out. and looked at the results of woman in my age group and how long it took them to do 50miles. well now the self doubt came back in... who am I kidding can I do 50 miles in 3 hours. when it takes me 1 hour to do 15... and that is only 14mph.. I would have to ride 17mp to get it done in 3 hours..
Tonight when I was riding I was really happy I was keeping right up with the front of the group. and I even was kind of racing with the leader.. but that is flat road.. where I lose it is hills.. but they are getting better for me, it felt good to have one of the riders who have done irongirls and tri's tell me I was doing great and stepping it up. I will be able to take those hills better, I know what my problem is I lose. site of the hill and I slow my self down when I shift or something so .. that is something I can work on.. other then that.. I am going to do this ride and I am going to ride giving it my all, and I am going to finish no matter how long it takes. one thing I am not going to have is self doubt.. I know I and will ride like I always do. with all my effort