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Weeding my Garden of Feelings

Tuesday, July 23, 2013

Isn't it something how things can change in a few hours? Yesterday I felt wonderful, and I had a rough day today...... not foodwise, thank goodness, but emotionally, oh those peelings........ oh oh oh peelings.....
that's how I used to sing that feelings song, as if my feelings were a joke.

Anyway, I was sitting in the park, took my doggy for a walk and it was at the rose garden, you see I got married in that rose garden to my first husband, and was sitting right where we walked up the aisle, we were just so very young.

Anyway, I was sitting there and I started feeling sorry for myself, I even started thinking, "How did my life turn out so poorly?" stuff like that. Oh boy, this is NOT good. I indulged in the pity pot awhile and then said to myself, stop it!

Just effing stop it!!!!!!

Think about the things that are good in your life now, think about how you are rewriting your story. And then I remembered the park people and communtiy have re done this park and rose garden, they fixed it up so beautifully, making lovely planters, saving heritage roses, putting in trellis' and lots of benches to sit and enjoy the smell of roses and the beauty of this public space. It is a fine and lovely place to be, it had deteriorated over the years since that long ago wedding of young sweethearts.

And I thought, hmmmmm, I am trying to make a garden of my life right now too, I am re-habing my life with the help of alot of friends, our community and some of my family.

I have lots of things to be grateful for, I am watering my garden and its flourishing now, not dying like before, I thought, "I have as many reasons to be happy as there are luscious roses in this lovely garden" and I started to feel a little better, and this evening I do feel better now, it was not a good beginning of the day, but it is ending better than I could of thought, and the garden that is my life really is growing as it should.

Love, Jilly


Member Comments About This Blog Post:
PROUD-GRANDMA 7/24/2013 1:12AM

    Wonderful blog. Thank you for sharing! emoticon

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ONEMORX 7/23/2013 11:13PM

    Wonderful blog! Thank you for sharing the story of today. Keep up the great work. And I actually liked the substitution of peelings for feelings. It is a great metaphor for getting better every day. Blessings and emoticon on your journey!

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-WISPY- 7/23/2013 10:44PM

    Hey Jilly, just loving this blog. I suffered most of my life with depression, from a child on up, so I know how great it is to start a day off feeling so negative, but with some positive thinking and acting as if, by the evening the whole day can change and seem better.

Way to go keep up the good work. This is a day to be proud of.

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DAWNSJOURNEY 7/23/2013 10:32PM

    love this analogy .. and we are all a garden here together Flowers blooming , birds singing ..

Dig your roots deep , sway with the wind.. soak in the rain and reach for the SUN !!

Bloom where you are planted my dear.. I can't wait to see it ..


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PATTISWIMMER 7/23/2013 9:53PM

    Yes better to see the positive side it is more uplifting.

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