Isn't it something how things can change in a few hours? Yesterday I felt wonderful, and I had a rough day today...... not foodwise, thank goodness, but emotionally, oh those peelings........ oh oh oh peelings.....
that's how I used to sing that feelings song, as if my feelings were a joke.
Anyway, I was sitting in the park, took my doggy for a walk and it was at the rose garden, you see I got married in that rose garden to my first husband, and was sitting right where we walked up the aisle, we were just so very young.
Anyway, I was sitting there and I started feeling sorry for myself, I even started thinking, "How did my life turn out so poorly?" stuff like that. Oh boy, this is NOT good. I indulged in the pity pot awhile and then said to myself, stop it!
Just effing stop it!!!!!!
Think about the things that are good in your life now, think about how you are rewriting your story. And then I remembered the park people and communtiy have re done this park and rose garden, they fixed it up so beautifully, making lovely planters, saving heritage roses, putting in trellis' and lots of benches to sit and enjoy the smell of roses and the beauty of this public space. It is a fine and lovely place to be, it had deteriorated over the years since that long ago wedding of young sweethearts.
And I thought, hmmmmm, I am trying to make a garden of my life right now too, I am re-habing my life with the help of alot of friends, our community and some of my family.
I have lots of things to be grateful for, I am watering my garden and its flourishing now, not dying like before, I thought, "I have as many reasons to be happy as there are luscious roses in this lovely garden" and I started to feel a little better, and this evening I do feel better now, it was not a good beginning of the day, but it is ending better than I could of thought, and the garden that is my life really is growing as it should.