Tuesday, July 23, 2013
I have been stalking blogs this afternoon while my little guy has slept and I found one that I would simply LOVE to share. It resonates with me almost to the tee. I have done just about all of these things.
Yes I did diet pills, brief as it was until I thought I was goign to have a heart attack when my heart was racing so fast.
Yes, I have been one to wait to weigh until I pee, have every stitch of clothing off because those ounces DO matter.
Yes, I have plunged into the 'miracle diet' and have sacrificed things in the process not allowing myself to participate in certain events because of the food.
And finally, yes I am in peace negotiations. Some days are easier than others to look at my body as strong and fit. Lifting my baby, the groceries, weights. Feeling good about eating the food. Having peace with calories once and for all. Some days are harder. Some days I simply feel gross, bloated, fat. Some days I don't want to look in the mirror and see the good things but find some sadistic satisfaction in picking myself apart getting angrier and angrier at all of my flaws.
The good day freaking rock.
The bad days suck.
It is hard when the bad days strike to find peace with the process. Reminding myself that I have worked hard to be where I am at now. So flipping happy that minus scale weight (or in reality my relationship with gravity) I am pretty much where I was pre-pregnancy. I am strong. I am athletic. I can workout hard. I eat good food. I eat lots of good food.
But here is the link. I read this and identified with it on every level:
Also I would love to share some links to various pages that have been stellar in helping me to find peace within myself:
Healthy Urban Kitchen:
This is not a diet its my life:
Coach Scott Abel:
I am sure I can come up with more but these are the main ones I enjoy.