Tuesday, July 23, 2013
I spent over 3 years losing weight and getting fit, I put a lot of effort and time into being healthy. I had lost 122 lbs as of April 1st, 2013 until I went back to school. I became very stressed out and discouraged with someone treating me like a fool. When someone isn't happy with me, that is reflective in how I conduct myself.
While I made my best effort to keep a hold on my progress, I slipped back 25 lbs. My give a damn is busted, I feel I can no longer eat according to plan. I am now working on a lifelong dream that my husband has agreed to partake in with me.
I want to have a baby and after all the healthy efforts I have done, I am working on this at the current time. I feel that I don't want to reach goal weight only to look fat during a pregnancy. Although I don't feel good about my clothes getting tight and the fat looking ugly, I am so done with weight loss right now.
It has taken a long time for me to convince my husband to start trying for a baby and I am ceasing this opportunity. He is on board with me and we are making an effort.
He is heading on a business trip, leaving me at home for 2 weeks. I am so stressed about this whole thing and it is something we had planned to do together. I am going to be very happy when it is over and done with!