Monday, July 22, 2013
A month ago my doctor put me on a really restrictive diet to try and determine if I have some food allergies that are messing with my digestive system. I won't go into details, but it made eating healthy really frustrating for me. This diet though, was exactly what I needed and it came at exactly the right time.
First, I had let my emotional eating get out of control again. This time I was eating entire large bags of dark chocolate M&M's every night, which only hurt my stomach and made me feel bad the next day.
Second, because my binge eating was back, I had plateaued with weight loss. Starting the Specific Carbohydrate Diet helped to kick start that again for me, and I lost 13 pounds in the last month.
Third, the diet is working. It is not perfect and there are days when my stomach still hurts, but overall, I do feel better. That is a HUGE step forward for me. My stomach issues started almost 12 years ago and I just assumed that I would always fight with these problems.
Finally, I have proven to myself that I can truly do anything for one month. Now I am going to work on this diet for another three months and my confidence is much higher that I can make it happen. It is hard, it requires a lot of planning and I feel terrible when my restrictions hinder what people around me are eating. But if it works, it is worth all of the headaches.
I have bought two new cookbooks since starting this plan (I hate the word diet because it makes it sound like this is temporary) and have discovered that I actually can cook. I'm slow and I make huge messes in my kitchen, but I have created some pretty tasty things! And I have found a bunch of veggies that I never would have tried without literally having to because of the restrictions. I'm much more willing to try something out. I've learned that it is not necessary to have carbs at every meal. This was a huge lesson for me!
And the biggest thing that has surprised me is that it is not as hard as I thought to avoid the "bad" foods. I was on this diet when I spent two days at Summerfest and a day at a county fair. Did I want to have fresh corn on the cob or a funnel cake? Of course I did, but not because I was hungry, more because it was a habit. I did want a taste of the chocolate ice cream that someone was eating (homemade at the fair) but it wasn't that I felt deprived. I didn't have to force myself not to sneak a taste or anything. I just knew that this was the right choice for me. I have done way too much work to give in at this point.
In the past, I have never put my full energy and heart into getting healthy. I would make the right choices, say the right things but then sneak and hide food. And it definitely just made me feel worse about myself.
But this time, I'm making the right choices, and for the right reasons. I am not feeling deprived, although I am a little sad that delivery of any kind is not in my future. No chinese or pizza in a flash for me. But that just means that if I'm going to make this work, I have to think ahead, try new things and keep my amazing support group around me.
I could never have done this all without amazing friends and family, and even though I haven't been very active on SP, that includes everyone here who reads what I write, comments on my status changes and "likes" my accomplishments. My family endured lots of healthy foods while I was on vacation with them, and never complained. They even thought twice about ordering bad stuff in case I would feel bad having to watch them eat it. My brother even entered a 5K, which amazes me to this day. I know that I'm getting healthy for me, for my own journey in life, but I also know that my getting healthy it helping everyone around me because I am a better person, a happier person and the start of a good role model.
Have a great night everyone!